I thought I had beaten it.

[Susan Jane]

Back in it. Well maybe it never left. I get confused and forgetful. Spent a lot of time talking to Dr Catalyst because I wasn’t able to relate to people somehow . I am in a freeze total shutdown and I am finding it very difficult to defrost and have hope of recovery. Any words of wisdom? Thanks

 

[Sideways]

If you make an assessment about where you are right now - like, objectively, what am I doing during the day, what did I do yesterday - can you identify small goals you can start to add each day?

Like, when I’m badly depressed, getting out of bed an having a shower is an achievement. Because I stop doing that. So, my long goal might be getting out working and socialising again, but for today, and in order to achieve those long goals, it’s actually an achievement for me to shower. So if I do that? That becomes forward motion. It’s a genuine achievement. I can minimise it all I like, but if I didn’t shower yesterday, then it’s progress to do that today.

Those small things add up. They build critical momentum. And tracking them can be especially helpful. Writing down things you did today (rather than sticking with Depression’s favourite topic - Things I Didn’t Do Today!) and tracking those achievements starts to help rebuild the brain’s perception of what we can achieve.

The helplessness and hopelessness things we get stuck in is phenomenal, but I personally always found that writing those small achievements down, having written goals that I could work towards each day (realistic, achievable stuff!) was really helpful at helping rewire that mindset over time.

 

[ms spock]

Back in it. Well maybe it never left.

Remember our brains lie to us.

You have left it. You've made progress before.

I get confused and forgetful.

That's not usual. Give yourself a break.

Spent a lot of time talking to Dr Catalyst because I wasn’t able to relate to people somehow .

Yet you are here now relating to us.

I am in a freeze total shutdown and I am finding it very difficult to defrost and have hope of recovery. Any words of wisdom? Thanks

I think @Sideways came up with a good suggestion with having a shower.

The small things matter.

Showers
A meal
Posting here to let us know how e are doing.
Changing sheets.
Some Self Compassion - Kristin Neff's website has free guided self compassion talks.

And know that you are not alone. I've hit the deck and I am down for the count. I am, mostly, not managing the basics. I am writing the complaints about the Insurance Company's negligence and fraud. I am talking to a statutory body. I am researching for a new psychiatrist. Having a shower is one of my achievements at the moment.

 

[Susan Jane]

If you make an assessment about where you are right now - like, objectively, what am I doing during the day, what did I do yesterday - can you identify small goals you can start to add each day?

Like, when I’m badly depressed, getting out of bed an having a shower is an achievement. Because I stop doing that. So, my long goal might be getting out working and socialising again, but for today, and in order to achieve those long goals, it’s actually an achievement for me to shower. So if I do that? That becomes forward motion. It’s a genuine achievement. I can minimise it all I like, but if I didn’t shower yesterday, then it’s progress to do that today.

Those small things add up. They build critical momentum. And tracking them can be especially helpful. Writing down things you did today (rather than sticking with Depression’s favourite topic - Things I Didn’t Do Today!) and tracking those achievements starts to help rebuild the brain’s perception of what we can achieve.

The helplessness and hopelessness things we get stuck in is phenomenal, but I personally always found that writing those small achievements down, having written goals that I could work towards each day (realistic, achievable stuff!) was really helpful at helping rewire that mindset over time.

I appreciate your input. I guess the question is when will I accept that I am deeply depressed. I had hope that it was going away and then it hit me again. I have been battling the beast for decades, I feel completely worn out. I know I have to change my expectations of myself. I am finding showering and getting out of the lying position an achievement. It is very hard to accept.

 

[Susan Jane]

Remember our brains lie to us.

You have left it. You've made progress before.

That's not usual. Give yourself a break.

Yet you are here now relating to us.

I think @Sideways came up with a good suggestion with having a shower.

The small things matter.

Showers
A meal
Posting here to let us know how e are doing.
Changing sheets.
Some Self Compassion - Kristin Neff's website has free guided self compassion talks.

And know that you are not alone. I've hit the deck and I am down for the count. I am, mostly, not managing the basics. I am writing the complaints about the Insurance Company's negligence and fraud. I am talking to a statutory body. I am researching for a new psychiatrist. Having a shower is one of my achievements at the moment.

Thank you, that’s one of the challenges realizing that I am not alone. I feel so alone and I live alone, socializing is out of the question right now. I feel so guilty about being depressed. I feel my friends have heard enough of it. I’m really struggling this morning. Showering is one of mine as well. I really need to change my sheets!

 

[ms spock]

Thank you, that’s one of the challenges realizing that I am not alone.

It really is a challenge to realise that you are not alone. I really get that.

I feel so alone and I live alone, socializing is out of the question right now.

I don't know if you can walk. Not socialising but sitting in a park, a library or a mall. Just so you are around. If not useful please ignore.

I feel so guilty about being depressed.

It is hard being depressed again.

I feel my friends have heard enough of it.

You are brave because you have told your friends.

I’m really struggling this morning.

I am feeling for you.

Showering is one of mine as well.

You are not alone on this one.

I really need to change my sheets!

I have some purple sheets. What colour are your sheets

 

[Susan Jane]

It really is a challenge to realise that you are not alone. I really get that.


I don't know if you can walk. Not socialising but sitting in a park, a library or a mall. Just so you are around. If not useful please ignore.


It is hard being depressed again.


You are brave because you have told your friends.

I am feeling for you.


You are not alone on this one.

I have some purple sheets. What colour are your sheets

My sheets are white. Bad color probably