What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[wife of]

Helpless beyond belief.

When does resolute and loyal turn into stubborn and unrealistic. I'm so confused,it feels as though the whole universe is against us getting back to any sense of "normal" or even finding a new "normal" that is good enough for us both to live with .I'm cutting negative friends off at a rate of knots but he has even lost hope in himself and I'm struggling to stay positive,I can't fight this for him and I don't know how to put the fight back into him.

This feels like that point you reach when watching someone with a terminal illness when they decide that enough is enough and they give in.

 

[Iam]

Oh wife.....I am so sorry. I can only imagine what it is like for you supporters. My husband has often told me how difficult my down periods are for him. How scared he gets at times. Yet, because he has stuck with me, I am far better now. Your husband is blessed to have you. ((((HUGS))))

 

[wife of]

Sorry,maybe should not of put this in here. I don't want to upset any sufferers,my thinking is a little clouded right now and my judgement may be off.

 

[Iam]

Oh my gosh Wife.....Absolutely you should put this here. This thread is for both sufferers and carers. You as a carer need support too. As for me, it did not make me upset at all. Only more thankful for my wonderful husband.

 

[Meadowsweet]

Wife of, there are so many people dont stick around, I have a great deal of respect for all you supporters. And you are human and have feelings too. Don't forget to do something pleasurable for yourself today x

I'm finding it difficult to relate to what I'm feeling today. It's my Nan's funeral tommorow. She was 101 years old, so it's a relief I think, not a sad occassion. But it will change my mums life. And both of my sisters are going through major changes in the direction of their lives. And in a couple of weeks I'll have finished all my lectures at uni after 3 1/2 years. i want change, but I dont feel I have the energy for it and I can't see anything to aim for.

 

[The Albatross]

My deepest sympathies Meadowsweet for you, and your families loss. Hope that something "just right" appears on the horizon for a new direction for you.

I feel one of my rare headaches... but think it may be allergic pain... or rain headed our way (?).
I feel glad I went to see my friend at the nursing home... a plus is one of the girls I used to work with is an RN there.
I feel good about going back to church.
I feel ready to rest and pretty good today. I did okay, and didn't stress to much.

 

[CraftyCath]

((((Meadowsweet))))

(((Wife Of)))) Vent all you like, you need and deserve the support as much as the next person. I have CPTSD but can only guess at how terrible combat stress is (if that's what your H has, don't know if I read that in another thread or just guessed it, or am completely wrong :confused:- none of my business really:rolleyes:). Anyhoo, thank you for not giving up on him even though it is tough.

 

[CraftyCath]

but think it may be allergic pain

I can sympathise Alba. Before I went away I had a sore throat and my nose was blocked and bleeding. It cleared up when I was away but is back in full force now I'm home. Perhaps i should get the duster out more but I really CBA!

 

[wife of]

Yep it is combat related,multiple trauma.:poop:

 

[CraftyCath]

:poop: doesn't do it justice. We need better emoticons, more descriptive.

 

[Sazza]

Still feeling really down today but last week or so been lethargic and CBA with it. Still tired and CBA but agitation is setting in now to hardly kept still all day, i hate these mixed episodes and all can do is ride them out.

 

[CraftyCath]

((((Sazza)))) Riding it out is all we can do, but you're strong enough to do it.