What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[jo may]

I feel calmer, extremly tired all the time, depression is slowly creeping back and to top it off I'm very disappointed in myself as I got drunk last night. And than couldn't sleep as I was in extreme pain in my back, think it's because I drank on top of all my meds including my Gabapentin, Zapain and Diazapam.

It honestly wasn't planned but I got a lot of free drinks and once I started I just kept going, very silly and I'm very mad at myself as I thought I was on top of this drinking thing. But I'll be fine and the different pain will go away soon.

 

[jo may]

Sometimes amazed that I am still standing.........

Awwwww ((((hugs)))) but I kinda understand, I think:)

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Jo may))) Don't be too hard on yourself ok? I also slipped because of stress and being so hurt. So, what do we do?? We get back up on the sober horse and move on. We forgive ourselves because we are not perfect. We do the same thing for ourselves that our forum friends do. We accept ourselves the way we are and keep moving forward!

 

[CraftyCath]

Peaceful today. Will it last?

 

[AngelaMarie]

Sometimes amazed that I am still standing.........

I think we all feel like that somtimes! I am glad you are still standing ITL!:)

 

[jo may]

Peaceful today. Will it last?

I really hope it last :tup:

 

[Iam]

Sometimes amazed that I am still standing.........

It's because you are an amazing person Deb!

 

[KP the nut]

I'm being kind to myself today. It was a busy, stressy morning at work. I also had the start of a migraine, but managed to zap it to a bad headache.

After lunch I went for a nap and feel much better now.

I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed, but managing to stay calm and grounded.

I'm hoping I don't get my Hs awful head cold. Rephrase that - I will not get a head cold, I will not allow it :rolleyes:

 

[Loloma]

I feel calmer, extremly tired all the time, depression is slowly creeping back and to top it off I'm very disappointed in myself as I got drunk last night.

Jo may, ten points for honesty, your not the only one that slips up on occasion. Best not to beat yourself up about it as I used to do all the time. Just be careful with the meds, as we would hate it, if something happened to you.

Let's hope today and tomorrow are better for you. ((((Hugs)))

 

[Iam]

Wow, what a mix of emotions today.

Pleased that my first "informational" interview with a senior care agency went so incredibly well. Informational interview meaning I wasn't interviewing for a job, I was meeting with the owner to gain information about the industry.
Proud that in this poor job market I was offered a job in my first interview (number of hours can't be guaranteed) starting in January and even more......that the owner took my resume because he wants to market it to other's in the industry. One of the purposes that I ask to meet with the owner was to start networking...and it is happening!
Anxious because I don't know if I am making the right decision to accept a very low paid position just to do what I want vs my excellent past income in a stressful industry that I know I can no longer handle. Am I selling myself short, should I look for something higher up in this new industry instead of the bottom rung? Am I just jumping at the first thing because in this job market it's easier than looking further?
Lacking Confidence that I have the skills to do something more.
Excited that, thanks to the owner that I interviewed with, I have another "informational interview" set up with a non-profit Alzheimer's program on the 28th and this may be the start of a new career that I will love!
Thankful that my husband is supporting me in whatever decision I make.

Wow.....what a whirlwind. Why am I so scared that I will make the wrong choice?

 

[intothelight]

Iam

You will do great. I love that you are pursuing something that you really want to do. I am beginning to learn that peace of mind has to price, and I am not sure there is enough money in the world to make "stress" worth it! :D

So happy for you.

Deb

 

[Iam]

Aww thanks Deb. My heart says yes this is where I need to go so I guess I am going to go for it. Initially I won't earn enough money to meet current expenses, but I am hoping I can move up the pay scale. I really am not sure where this is heading and that is scary! I am usually soooo very logical and make calculated moves based on probabilities Guess I am just going to have to trust that God is leading me and that all will work out. Ooooh.....trust......GAH that is hard!