I am feeling a bit discouraged and afraid, because I've realized that I have been avoiding confrontation that will inevitably occur if I choose to take some of my life 'back'. I'm not comfortable saying the details, but to some degree I've become a prisoner in my own house. It started by losing mornings before work, then my day off, now there is talk of more, with threats if I don't. At first it was because of me- my own tiredness etc. But now, I will have to go through the fire to assert myself, and that will end in fighting, yelling, and threats (all triggers to me).
That makes me feel sad and worried, and tempted to avoid it :(
I feel somewhat less guilty for my isolation, in recognizing the larger dynamic.
I also know, however, some of those threats come from otthers' fear, so though I think their reasoning (fear) is somewhat exagerated, I wonder if it's better giving up my own choices (some of them) for their peace of mind (at least for now).
So I feel confused.
And I've written too much- sorry.
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