How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[KP the nut]

I slept well, the vivid weird dreams are still there, but for the most part, they are managable.

 

[Let It Be]

For some reason, and now I think I know, I have had the same dream/vision over and over. It happened again last night, but I think I was finally at the point where I could get through it.

The dream is about how my boss is keeping the cancelled checks from me, thus I cannot "reconcile" the checkbook.

I kept the books where I used to work, paid the bills, etc. My boss was at another location but would call reguarly to ask about how our finances were, and I would need to come up with an amount of $$ every Monday morning, so everyone would get paid, etc.

I hated that phone call, and now when I think about it, I can feel the affects of how much stress I felt in coming up with the right amount, or else!

 

[goingonhope]

:O_o: Omg, I am so exhausted!!! :( It's been 3 days and 2 nts. without any sleep whatsoever and I could just collapse. I do so hope I find sleep tonight. :unsure:

 

[HëllaBubz]

Does anyone else dream about committing suicide?
I've been dreaming about it a lot.

I'm worried because I have checked myself in once before under suicidal watch.

 

[Elena Farely]

Does anyone else dream about committing suicide?
I've been dreaming about it a lot.

I'm worried because I have checked myself in once before under suicidal watch.

I sometimes have dreams of myself dying (by different means) but the end result being my boyfriend also kills himself in different ways.

 

[HëllaBubz]

....but the end result being my boyfriend also kills himself in different ways.

Yeah, I've had several of those, they were pretty horrible, and messed me up pretty bad.

I had nightmares filled with bloodshed and all sorts of horrible demons and people, and through out the entire dream I kept wondering what the hell had I read or done or seen to set off a nightmare like that, and the only explanation that I could come up with was the fact that my mother and I had discussed my father the evening before, and she had validated some of my biggest issues with my father.

Although one would have thought that a result like that would have ended in dreams about fluffy bunnies and skipping through rainbows!

Another dream I had 2 days ago was that my father had locked me up in a prison with a dead person, and somehow I resurrected him, and we managed to break out of the prison, but not before enduring hours of torment from my father about how he was going to kill my partner and there was nothing I could do about it.

When we broke out of prison, my father noticed and so races us to the church to make sure it goes ahead, and so when we arrive, I see a church full of people that I know, and my sister holding my partner who is lying down, and just as I race down the aisle to stop her, she looks up, smiles at me, and drives a pen through his eye.

When I get to him, he is bleeding everywhere, and I pull the pen out, but he is in so much pain he keeps screaming for me to put it back to try to stop some of the pain, so I put my hand over his eye, and watch the blood start to seep through my fingers.

I look up, and my father is standing there, smiling.

The scariest part is that this dream is kind of like my relationship with my father, he is downright poisonous.



Damn I hate my head sometimes.

 

[KP the nut]

Does anyone else dream about committing suicide?

I have always said I would never commit suicide. So it completely threw me when my nightmare involved planning my suicide.

I stockpiled meds, even taking then out of their containers and putting the empty boxes in waste bins around the town. Once I had enough, I ran a nice bath (bubbles, the works) and I then settled down and took all of the tablets.

I woke in tears because I didn't want to die. I did speak to my T about it and that helped. That was my one and thank goodness only suicide dream.

Wishing you sweet dreams.

 

[HëllaBubz]

Thanks KP, interestingly enough, I haven't dreamed about it since I originally mentioned it on here.

 

[Elena Farely]

I went to bed with happy thoughts and cried for a bit. It was happy crying.. But then thoughts struck me and I got depressed. Cried harder and eventually fell asleep. I slept for about 4-5 hours. All I can remember from my dream is just a room filled with blood and bodies dismembered lying all over the place.

No doors, no windows. Nothing. And written on the walls in blood was "No escape"

I recently had surgery on my toe and had to clean it this morning and the sight of some dried up blood gave me a sudden sight of blood on the bathroom walls for a moment.

My dreams/nightmares are effecting my everyday life. Causing less sleep. I used to be able to fall back asleep after a few minutes (10 minutes at most) if I wake up early but lately I just can't/don't sleep. Nor can I fall back asleep.

 

[Ruckster]

I don't sleep. I try. I stay in the bed and lie very still with my eyes closed and try to breathe slowly and calmly. I go to bed around 11. I avoid television and especially the nightly news. I have given up caffeine. Still, 2am comes and I am just done sleeping.

 

[LawPhotos]

All I can remember from my dream is just a room filled with blood and bodies dismembered lying all over the place.

No doors, no windows. Nothing. And written on the walls in blood was "No escape"

Elena, I feel for you. Among other things, I too, struggle with nightmares, insomnia etc. Like yours, my nightmares are sometimes gory, bloody, very graphic etc. Very scary and they often stick with me all day. I hate it...

 

[Ice_Fire]

I hardly slept at all last night. Which is nothing new really, but I'd been doing pretty well for the past few nights. When I did sleep, horrible nightmares, feeling trapped...:(