I've got to say something about that Goal thread. Please take no offense Ayesha, but I perceived that thread among the least serious (for any accuracy) of threads here.
Perhaps it was because it took generally only seconds for me to think of some goal to write, (generally always some Reminder-goal, amidst many other responsibilities and goals) ...to live. So for me personally it was like an opportunity to reinforce a reminder of something I did not want to miss doing and very easily could have while too often feeling the necessity and pressures from life, to put myself last.
There were instances where I noticed that people quickly and very simply responded with household chores or such, and other things, but I suspended drawing any conclusions as to why perhaps, because I simply didn't think in literal terms, nor take the thread as intended to reflect any accuracy, completeness, or of any real concern. Probably, because I was guessing that life is unpredictable. Personally, I wasn't there reading retaining any educational value from it. I was there joining in what I was perceiving as a little quick online expression, goal or reminder. A game somewhat, and for the more serious days, if there was time, some communication perhaps.
It reminded me of exactly what I believe it was intended to be, a little thing that brings the community together within an impatient MH hospitalization. Well the 3 words for a change and the 1 word-consecutive-words, does about the same thing and brings some from the group together in as little possible thought and effort possible.
Personally, I kind of thought this way about that thread, because in anyone of my posts there I listed 3% going low, or 15% perhaps going high of the actual work laid out for me and goals of all sizes in which I try and isolate one job or goal from its next, nearly every day and I do work towards.
I don't know, I just can't seem to get unstuck from this though:
Maybe being a survivor has made me want for more and maybe my question is based on my perception of life. This is why I am asking as I struggle to comprehend the 'stagnation'. There are members here who have been here as long as I have and are still at the same position and I have seen others come, learn, grow and leave as I have seen my own husband progress. So what defines the difference as I can't see it as only being the illness all of the time?
I bulleted a list of some possible additional differences, though I did not identify it as such, and right now going back to peek at it, I've noticed that I used pretty much exclusively past tense. My error. Instead this:
So many of my injuries, even abuses resulted from me being extremely ill and having numerous people, including mother, doctors, family, once a beloved boyfriend, many an acquaintances and those of whom called themselves a friend, - conclude perhaps in ignorance, moralize, judge and condemn me for being deeply injured, traumatized, ill and unable to help myself.
is too frequent for me, and is as much present tense as certainly it was past, and should perhaps read,
...result from, and
...whom call themselves a friend,
It drives me near bonkers, and apparently I have something to do with it, but sometimes people will think I'm speaking out of the long past, when I often am speaking in the present or recent enough and raw past, but for some reason apparently may find it safer to talk in past tense, as I seem to be making these errors.
I think it's also important to recognize that whatever points in one's healing which we reach, that it is not any guarentee, or a sure bet, that conditions will remain forever intact and moving forward steadily, or even gradually moving in that one prefered direction.
So in order for this reality not to be perceived as a negative one, I'll add reminding us all, how very important for many not to take life, family, loved ones, friends and people, today's beliefs, theory or knowledge, and/or anything, condition or situation whatsoever for granted.
...nor to damn seriously. This last bit is especially just for me.
