If it knocked you down, it was intended to knock you down. It is about their unresolved issues. It says more about who they really are than about you.
Hi gizmo,
Yes, I did feel knocked down and it was all of sudden. Sometimes I have picked up feelings that they use people to learn something from them. Like learning at others' expense. I didn't feel good. So I completely let go and I am ready to move on from this person. I want to move on with positive mindset and feelings. Opposite way will hurt me much. At the moment we aren't talking that much, so that's relief.
Just recently on my birthday's night, a spiritual healer called me attention seeker, too needy and pleasing others. She came on my wall and began to tell me this all stuff. She asked me did I tell my friends about my problems? I gently let her know I am honest with my friends as I am honest with you. Then she didn't thought to comment on it, but sent inbox messages. My god, I couldn't believe what she said and it was out of blue. Intended to target me and proving themselves like they are always right. It upset me for whole night. I couldn't sleep properly. I felt caring, now she is uncaring all of sudden? Didn't wish me b'day wish, tells about her mind's state. Yes gizmo, you're right it talks about their intentions and their unresolved issues.
I could sense she is trying to imitate my past friend who left me. It's a long story, But I will tell you in short. I loved female friend long ago and we had to be parted for some important reasons. She really cared for me and she left me so I can concentrate on my life's improvement and can invest more heart. It took more than 1 year to understand why she left me. She never meant harm to me.
She taught me lessons of kindness. She was professional counselor, but she was friend to me and never took any charge from me. We talked for two years. Those days I was being lazy and I was in her love, but not working with her. She thought it will be better for her to go out from my life. It was very hard moment, but at the moment I can speak two kind words because of her company, spending moments with her and sharing life with her. I will never forget this lady's help. It was all unconditional. She really believed me until the end of our friendship. It angered me for a while, why this spiritual healer is trying to copy her. no way she can't be like her. We talked a lot, then what made her think I am excuse maker and trying to draw an attention. When person is asking for help, it's not called as attention seeking. It is just they will try to request others to get some help.
Granted, this spiritual healer gave me bigger insights, but accusing me of making excuses and not working properly was not from her. It sounded like she is voicing someone else. She knows I am suffering from emotional abuse from parents and has trauma in my mind. She expects me to get this done fast as soon as possible. This healer has all tools, but after listening this wrong things from her. I have lost trust for her. It's all was on FB. FB has bad history, so I am not surprised either. I have decided not to do FB thing at all. I don't trust getting help from there. I will keep to my friends, I have some good friends there. So I will talk with them only. I joined this spiritual healer because she invited me in her Facebook group six months ago.
I remember one thing, when I joined that group. I told them, I don't feel safe with world anymore. They talked and behaved nicely. After a week she told me she hopes I am feeling safe and good in her group. that sounded too quick to me. It was my mistake that I continued talking with her despite having some bad feelings for that group.
More over this spiritual healer was telling me to stop looking for other allies. what is this? :confused:
I am going to discontinue friendship with this spiritual healer. It sounds more dangerous to me. She has hurt me much.
Thank you so much gizmo for your support and input. It helps. Big :hug:
