Today (in the small hours of the morning), I got angry again for a similar reason, and it will sound very much like my last rant, as it involves a doctor again. This time a doctor was listening to my heart through a stethoscope, and asked me if I ever feel anxious or stressed, and I replied "Yes, I suffer from PTSD", to which his reply was "Why do you have that then?". Is that really an appropriate question? (Please no one take offence to what I am about to say, it's just to highlight a point) Would he have liked it if I had said "I was raped" or "I saw my friend get killed in Iraq"? If I had said either of these things, would he have continued to ask me probing and downright nosey questions? I replied "My friend was murdered". I assume that is really enough information to give a doctor I have never met before, without then talking all about childhood and a million other things at a simple check up appointment, but no, he then asked me a few questions more about my friend's death. I won't bore you with the details. People are just too fascinated by murder, it makes me feel so ill. Why couldn't he just read over my medical records when I left the room. Total git.
I am angry today because of a clear lack of sensitivity which some human beings posess. I am angry today because no matter how much I prepare myself for people talking about my friend's murder or asking me about PTSD, I always crumble - I always forget to stick up for myself. I am really angry at everyone, especially stupid doctors just now, but above all, I am so mad at myself for never just saying "It's none of your business". I would never ask someone details about someone they knew who was murdered. That is just wrong. Have a little empathy please world! You are driving me mad!