I have to take Adderoll to wake up
I do the same thing because of my illness and the insurance company taking away the one thing that worked on a consistent basis, provigil. Nice of the insurance company to decide whether I need something, instead of my doctors! ugh
I have developed trauma about taking it because I was drugged against my will as a child.
In my dad's house medicine was used as absolutely the last option, if at all. It was discouraged and considered a weakness. My mom's house wasn't like that and it was taken as needed. Very confusing for a child to say the least.
My aversion to taking medicine has more to do with the suicide attempt when I was 17. I o'd. Plus, I think, doing something that is "good" for me, will make me feel better, is definitely hard for me.
My diet has a huge influence when I am not feeling well and definitely contributes to eventually falling ill.
I noticed when I was inpatient and all day out patient, I ate better. Actually, I ate more consistently then I usually do. I had a well balanced lunch. I truly believe it helped me feel better and less tired. I didn't gain weight doing that, which is what I always fear.
don't like it but I think it maybe isn't so bad as it is a case of what is worse as there is no ideal solution
I always ask myself what is the big deal about taking meds that you need? I definitely have difficulty with it. I've tried going without it, for all of my medical conditions. Wasn't a good experience the couple times I've done that to myself. My husband doesn't think it's a big deal that I am on meds for the depression and anxiety. He thinks, if you need them, what's wrong with it? You'd take insulin if you had diabetes. So what if you need those drugs.
I wonder, in our society, why it is such a big deal. Doesn't help the guilt factor. I do choose my meds over my darkness any day (as long as they're working).