Spent a week in desperation, despair, and hopelessness land. Major...episode? Not ready to write myself as "not normal" as I do believe the response was normal, but ramped up by the PTSD.
Thanks for writing this intothelight. I have been thinking this morning about how much of my distress is trauma related and how much is "normal reaction" to life stuff. I have some friends going through all sorts of problems while I have been going through mine, and although they don't have PTSD, they do get really stressed and struggle at times to cope with everything. they get anxious, frightened, confused, worn out. They all have to spend much time coping with themselves, and how they are feeling. they go to work / look for work, deal with sick kids, move house etc....
I am trying to put my "stuff" into some kind of "normal" perspective. Knowing what others have been through and comparing that to what I have to deal with - in a non-judgmental way, just to see that it is hard for many people without PTSD It also have to deal with the PTSD, but this is just another of the things that life throws at us. Everyone has their burdens and PTSD is one of mine.
I would like to view it like that - as a burden in life, like all the others - maybe that way it won't keep trying to take me over and destroy all the good work that I do, and all the things that I am tying to cope with.
If I can put all the other things into 'boxes", then I can learn to do that with PTSD for some of the time.
