What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Pain in my stomach again. Concerned.

 

[Lionheart]

Was feeling very tired and scattered earlier, but feel more balanced after a few hours of :sleep: sleep. I am amazed at how much better I feel. (I know that I spent the last few hours dreaming, but have no idea of what I was dreaming about). Guess my mind was working things out. I feel rested, and hungry. :hungry:

 

[cat]

Hi Cath what a difficult situation for you. Is it possible for your husband to meet them without you? Couldn't you say its not in anyone's best interest to meet, it may give them a bit of a reality shock, they sound like just the sort of people you need to avoid.

I went through this with my sister Cath, she caused me a lot of extra stress until my T suggested I stand up to her, she's 7 yrs older than me, I was scared! Any way I did as suggested, told her to stop gining her opinions on my life & illness, even suggested she could walk in my shoes any time she liked. That did the trick! No more nasty comments, now we just meet at family events so that I can limit my contact with her.

I do hope you find a solution Cath this is the last thing you need.

Be strong & keep going!

 

[winterose]

On the fall out side of the past few days. Feeling blah, tired, a little depressed. I am humbled too, my poor bro got in the crossfire of my anger last night. Not at him but something else. Ptsd is a real f*ck.

 

[CraftyCath]

Who says you have to meet with them?

What law says you have to even see them again?

Littlelost child and Safenow, thank you both so much. x

I want the chance to confront her, even though I am terrified, to clear the air. Once I have had my say I will make a decision to cut them off. I haven't seen her for a year but when she does come round she pretends like nothing has happened. I'm not the type to brush things under the carpet and she knows this. She is probably as frightened as me but I want the confrontation.

I suggest a water pistol.

:roflmao: Thanks for caring Ms Spock and for making me laugh - you're so funny!

Is it possible for your husband to meet them without you?

Hi Cat and thank you for your post. x My H can meet up without me but to be honest, he is more angry than I am and he will probably loose his temper. His choice but I doubt he's go without me.

Couldn't you say its not in anyone's best interest to meet,

Thank you for this Cat. I think I might say that I will only meet somewhere in public is she is prepared to talk it out. If she says no then I will do as you suggested.

I'm so sorry you went through such a bad time with your sister, it is so difficult to stand up to people. I had to do it with my brother who is older than me because he was still tormenting me like he did when I was a kid. He really tries now thank goodness. Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement Cat. :hug:

 

[amethist]

I hope what ever you decide to do Cath, that you find some kind of peace with all of this.

Saying your piece then cutting her out altogether sound like a good idea to me.

 

[winterose]

HUGS Greenfrog, I am so sorry and angry(not at you) you have to be worried about being homeless when you are ill on top of it.


Ayesha, Hang in there. Lighting a candle for you and killing the weeds to keep your path cleared and well lit.

Cath, I been going through putting boundaries in place for the last few years. Getting rid of toxic people. It came down to this..if I am going to give me and the people I do care about a chance to bloom and flourish, then I must get well, and to get well bye-bye mofo's, I don't need to be the dock you park your crap at to make you feel better. Life is hard enough with the normal stressors of feeling love and loss, care etc. We don't need other people to dump their bullcrap on us if we are doing our work to stay on the "good" side of life. I created a safe environment pretty much because I want bro's grand-daughter to be here and be able to be a kid and grow without a bunch of two faced people around. I want to give her what I didn't have. I want my dogs to be free to play without remorse or caution. Really love is all that counts in this life and how we live by it. I hope my words here give you some strength and courage. Your life matters and your love matters and THAT is what you are protecting from harm of toxic idiots. :)

 

[CraftyCath]

Saying your piece then cutting her out altogether sound like a good idea to me.

Thanks Amethist. x

Thank you so much Winterrose, your words are a comfort to me and i am so grateful x

 

[winterose]

Cheering you on Cath. :)

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling pretty good tonight. I cleared out part of a cluttered area of one of the rooms. I took out four bags of stuff out and threw it out. So that is feeling pretty good.

 

[intothelight]

Just so sick of working so hard. Got in touch with my emotions and what a bunch of crap. People take what you say and hold on to it and use it to hurt and manipulate. F this, I am looking for isolation and disconnection as quickly as I can. Numb is safe. Why did I ever think that anything would be OK. Yes, this is how I feel, hurt, betrayed, and shit upon. Great feelings!! So why bother.

 

[winterose]

intothelight...I'm so sorry you're having a rough go of it right now. I been reading some of your posts and not sure if this help but I find your words comforting. So f*ck the asshole who made you feel your words should be used as weapons against you. You dont deserve it. It's them NOT you.