What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Lionheart]

I feel weary. I am dreading the nightly insomnia and also dreading going to sleep, (as I am out of nightmare medicine). I am tired and sleepy, yet wide awake (if that makes sense).

I feel a little lost and a bit like a small child. I am having intrusive visuals/ flashes from the past and feel like an inanimate object rather than a human being. I feel lonely but think this is loneliness from the past and not associated with the present.

At the same time that I feel tired and weary, I also feel numb...(and somehow confused).

 

[Philippa]

I feel sad but determined to not let the old conditioning that is trying to pull me back, or second guessing about my decision to keep me down this day. I'm also frustrated at having waited for 4 hours and still have yet to get one client. I hate waiting. I'm so sick of lying around doing nothing. I'm here to make money.

 

[Philippa]

I feel sad but determined to not let the old conditioning that is trying to pull me back, or second guessing about my decision to keep me down this day. I'm also frustrated at having waited for 4 hours and still have yet to get one client. I hate waiting. I'm so sick of lying around doing nothing. I'm here to make money.

 

[71nothing]

I keep coming to this thread to read but I can't yet reply with how I'm feeling. Why is this so hard for me?

 

[littlelostchild]

71 - Our PTSD usually causes us to cut ourselves off from our emotions in order to survive our trauma. Reconnecting takes time and you can't force it. I have been seeing a psychiatrist once a week for 6 months now and I still have lots of difficulty naming how I'm feeling and explaining why. Lots of times I shrug and say 'I dunno' - sometimes that's avoidance, but other times it's true.

Keep reading and one day you will be able to articulate how you are feeling.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I am terrified. If I can't find some more work within the next 2 weeks I will not be able to pay my rent. I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I am too scared to ask anyone that I know for help - I even know someone who is not working and has a 3 bedroom house - am sure he could use the income from renting out a room.

How do I approach him and ask - what do I say?? (He knows things have not been going all that well for - but not how truly desperate they are). Please make some suggestions so I can work out what to do!!!!!!

 

[GreenFrog2]

Ok had shower and bawled my eyes out. Now I am feeling abject terror - how can I deal with this? Imagine someone as unwell as me having to be homeless!!! (no chance of emergency accommodation wither - they are all overflowing in the place where I live).

Talk about desperate - I feel like I am "in danger" - fancy an accommodation crisis turning into a life threatening situation!

 

[ms spock]

all things (good) Star Trek , Ms Spock :)

Yes it makes me happy too, winterose. I might get some out tonight. I will see.

I have had a very busy day cleaning, decluttering and organising today. I got quite a bit done. I am feeling much better physically. I am feeling much better emotionally as well now I am able to do things again.[DOUBLEPOST=1360480299][/DOUBLEPOST]

Talk about desperate - I feel like I am "in danger" - fancy an accommodation crisis turning into a life threatening situation!

It is a terrible situation to be in GreenFrog2!

Biggest hugs and best wishes, if you want them from me.

 

[ms spock]

I often feel like this Ms Spock and have to really battle with it. If I'm honest, it wins most of the time. :hug:

It is hard one to deal with CraftyCath.

Good luck with the nasty person. I suggest a water pistol. And if they are nasty spray them with water and say each time you are nasty you will be sprayed. I know you can't do that. But I thought it might make you giggle.

 

[Lionheart]

(((GreenFrog2))),

I really don't know what to say nor do I have any suggestions to offer, but I wanted to say that I am so sorry that you are in that situation and with your permission, I will pray for you. Hopefully someone who is more street-wise than I can offer you some good advice. Perhaps if you are in therapy you could talk to your therapist and get some ideas as to how best to handle things. It seems to me like there should be some kind of social program out there to help you out of this jam. I apologize that I cannot be more helpful to you!

 

[Tanishq]

I thought it might make you giggle.

:laugh: Ms Spock, this idea made me laugh. Depends on the person though, if they are angry they might get more angry or possible their anger might fade away as time passes.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Defeat. I feel like I have been in a war and that I am being beaten down.

I wont give up that fight. I can't.