What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 6617]

Let's see; fear, Hurt, lost, frustrated. But it is probably just my perception of things and not real.

 

[safenow]

Outside of the pain, I am doing a lot of thinking today. I am anxious to find out if my therapist can help resolve an issue that has plagued me for too many years. All the way back to when I was living with my Uncle in my early years. I need to be deprogrammed. I'm not sure he is qualified to do that. sigh.

Anxious is a good word for what I'm feeling right now. sigh. I need to go ground.

 

[KP the nut]

I felt really sad during the night and I had horrid nightmares.

Thankfully I woke feeling a lot better. H and I have done our usual Saturday chores together. I will have a nap and later we will share a bottle of wine and have a nice supper.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling better today. Very grateful. No headache or stomach ache or flares. I am very happy about that. Not looking forward to going food shopping with my husband. I do not know how he will do. He has handled it so far. But I think it would be easier if I did it all by myself. I would miss him of course, but he is not doing very good at all.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am doing the food shopping by myself today. He does not think he will make it. I hope he can go to my daughters house because I want to stay there for awhile. He really is not feeling good at all. I wonder how I will do going by myself? I have not done that for years.

 

[amethist]

but wondering if it is really what I wanted.

I was right it was not what I wanted and am annoyed at myself for going so mad with the cut. It was not the hairdressers fault she only did what I asked.

I even went back this morning and asked them to alter it a bit. It's better now, but will still get some getting used to.

 

[CraftyCath]

Occasionally I have this little thought about what is the point for someone who has missed out on so much - how can I find my way. How can I ever get it together. What is the point of someone like me going on?

I often feel like this Ms Spock and have to really battle with it. If I'm honest, it wins most of the time. :hug:

I am hypervigilant, on edge, anxious, angry and worried. :(

A member of my husbands family is in the country and we do not get on. Her husband is always picking fault with me and when I confronted them about it they just turned it all on me, insinuated that I was lying and said it is because I have 'problems.'

I have just found out that she has been talking to another girl about me behind my back. I know she will want to visit me, not because she wants to but because she feels she has to. She will bring her sister like she always does in the hope that I won't kick off with her. I can't stand it! She pretends nothing has happened, brushes it all under the carpet and expects me to say nothing. I am expected to behave like an Edwardian Lady who sits quietly and sews or reads a book in company and only says the occasional sentence. Anyone who knows me knows I'm a live wire! I do not live in Jane Austin World!!!

I just won't play the game! They blame her husbands behaviour on his tinnitus. i have tinnitus and so do millions of others but that does not give us the right to be down right nasty.

So I have my phone on answer-phone and if I do meet her it will be on my terms in the location I choose and without her sister.

This is playing on mine and my H's mind so much and we are both fed up of being treated like we are something they brought in on their shoes.

Sorry, rant over!

 

[littlelostchild]

CraftyCath - I love how you said - "if I do meet with her it will be on my terms.." Who says you have to meet with them? If it is toxic could you consider not meeting?

 

[safenow]

we are both fed up of being treated like we are something they brought in on their shoes.

You said a mouthful. What law says you have to even see them again? I cut total contact with my family because they were toxic to me. These people sound toxic to you and your H.

 

[Britt.f7]

Today was a good day. I'll be going up on my abilify but have to wait until pay day in order to get the new prescription. I'm feeling rather happy with myself for getting things done that needed to be. Have to grab the good when it happens and run with it. Thinking of a girl running with a kite in a field. :)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling very good. I had a wonderful day today.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I am very relieved that I am starting to accept that:
1/ the emotional flooding I am experiencing is pretty normal for PTSD
2/ it will take some time and quite a bit of work for me to "get it all out" of my system in a healthy way
3/ that I am developing the skills to recognize the emotions, identify them and see they are from the past and are not needed anymore - because the past can't hurt me anymore
4/ it is ok to to acknowledge, and then set my fear and shame aside, because this will make room for validation, comfort and welcome.
5/ Letting the "I am safe" affirmation enter my head when I wake up is probably the best way to start my day - this can prevent non-specific anxiety from taking over and running my thoughts and emotions all day.
6/ it is up to me to allow myself to develop healthy relationships - a mix of empathy, vulnerability, disclosure and shared communications.

Oddly enough in writing this I am calming down quite a bit - it's nice to have a framework to utilize when I am thinking and feeling and processing.