Mother's Day... Anyone Else Dreading It? :-(

[Philippa]

Nothing like working on your birthday eh. Try and do something nice for yourself alba.

 

[Bosco2153]

I have Mother's Day resolved now. My daughter is out of town with her son and my son is racing on Mother's Day. When my daughter informed me that she was going to be out of town, she also informed me that my grandson's 8th grade graduation is in two weeks and that I'm going. Lol. She means well, but she has NO idea how that impacted my already out of control anxiety, and children can trigger me. I'm already planning ways to avoid it. Already looking into the mirror and pondering what a clod I am and how ashamed they'd be to have me show up. How difficult it would be to see all of my old students there and coworkers. Sigh!

I thought of creeping in reeeeeally early in a hoody and shades and then figured someone would think I was a terrorist grandma. I thought again of hiding under the laundry in my closet. Or running away to a motel for a week, as if I could even do that. Or actually making myself get ill. Of course these are only thoughts and will not happen (well the closet might). We'll see how this unfolds. Thank goodness for my medications for now.

 

[Bosco2153]

Okay I lied. I'm still dreading the inevitable Mother's Day phone calls.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I hate all the Mother's Day ads. On tv, in my inbox... Someone remind me to unsubscribe from the Hallmark list. I think I get a holiday reminder from them every other day. I don't want to be reminded, thank you very much!

It's been 6 weeks now since I shut my mom out of my life. She blames my dad for brainwashing me, lol. As if I can't think for myself. I still tell nobody. I fear their comments, I fear their looks. I don't want to have to defend myself. I shouldn't have to.

Tomorrow will hopefully come and go uneventfully. I'll be studying all day, so it's just as well. Oh yes, and skipping church. I know they'll do something in the service to honor moms, even though its not a religious holiday.

 

[Nicolette]

but she has NO idea how that impacted my already out of control anxiety, and children can trigger me.

I feel, in order to be true to yourself and everyone else, you should tell them just enough for them to understand enough..... seriously you would save yourself more issues overall with one conversation - even a letter. I mean well and I am sure your family doesn't want to make life harder for you but you need to tell them something is 'broken' to even give them a chance to 'fix it'.

 

[Bosco2153]

My kids and family do know I have PTSD and what it's from. I have talked with them and shared books on how to understand a loved one with PTSD. I have had 'episodes' in front of them in public and at home. I have taken themto therapy with me, and had their aunt, who gets it, meet with them for an evening long conversation about how to help meet my needs. I just don't think most people really ever 'get it'.