Great Question
Of course it does. I myself am always waiting for the "bad guy" to pop up. Because I KNOW violence can happen as quickly as a summer storm. You could be dead before you were even aware there was a problem... note the awful success of that guy in TN at the university and the mall thing in NB. I really believe that I will never get caught out like those poor murdered folks; I didn't survive 7 years of rape, torture, and violence just so some shmuck could gun me down in front of the Gap. So I watch people. I listen to what they say. I read their emotional weather. I understand body language. I pay attention. Lots and lots and lots of attention. And no one other than my father has ever laid a hand on me or committed acts upon my person. I, unlike very many ptsd sufferers, have never been re-victimized. Don't ask me how, because I'm not sure. Probably because what my father did to me made me more like a predator than like prey. I nearly went down that road- the one where you become what was done to you. People were afraid of me, though they didn't know why. I knew why- because my father trained me to be able to do the things he did. Anti-social personality disorder, anyone? *sarcastically dripping tone* Anyway, I have strayed from the topic, but a great question. And I want to add that I would much rather have the nightmares, flashbacks, anxiety, and depression than to have turned out like him. red