SpokaneSunshine
Bronze Member
Not quite sure how to answer, but I would say yes it definitely has impacted me. I've always been a very private person, but these past few months I've taken it to extremes. I'm recently divorced so I live alone, and I don't socialize with friends often. I was dating a guy, but he wasn't healthy for me, so we broke up. Most of my socializing is when I go out on a drinking or gambling binge, and then it's just talking with dealers, players, and bar flies.
I don't talk to anybody at work, even less than I did before. Don't even say hi. Also, my work suffers. I will plan to do something and not follow-through, correspond a letter but never have it mailed, etc.
Going out in public stresses me out, but I don't think that anybody is going to hurt me per say. I think I'm more frightened that something might happen which requires my intervention, and I will fail miserably like I did before, and people will die because of it. I also avoid any sort of confrontation, because even I realize rationally that people don't just walk around committing suicide in front of others, there is something in my mind that makes me fear it very terribly.
I don't talk to anybody at work, even less than I did before. Don't even say hi. Also, my work suffers. I will plan to do something and not follow-through, correspond a letter but never have it mailed, etc.
Going out in public stresses me out, but I don't think that anybody is going to hurt me per say. I think I'm more frightened that something might happen which requires my intervention, and I will fail miserably like I did before, and people will die because of it. I also avoid any sort of confrontation, because even I realize rationally that people don't just walk around committing suicide in front of others, there is something in my mind that makes me fear it very terribly.