What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Things aren't as bleak as they feel. My life is not the wasteland that my mind keeps telling me it is. The battle with the si is ongoing and annoying, but I am persisting. I hadn't realised how much the depressed thinking had taken over my life. I have to challenge and monitor my thinking at all times it is so deceptive and depressive. The depersonalisation and derealisation are prominent features and I was reading back through some of my written diaries and time and time again I come back to those features making it impossible for me to make decisions.

 

[PTSDMAMA128191]

Well, today I'm feeling like I'm in a never ending war and the only win I can have is with my husband and son. Feeling grateful for my sisters (adopted me actually my best friends), my husband, and son for never giving up on me even though there is a constant demon rattling the cage that is my soul every day and though people like taunting and triggering the demon I still have my boys (husband and son), and the best sisters I could ever ask for. That's gotta count for something.

 

[Let It Be]

The effects of seeing that counselor are slowly hitting me. No longer numb, but I'm so off-center from everything. It's like I can now allow the thoughts to come and I'm no longer ignoring them. I can tell I have a ways to go in feeling all this because I just pushed them down about the counselor while I was seeing her. Now I no longer have to do that and I can tell the difference already!

 

[ms spock]

Feeling anxious.

 

[PTSDMAMA128191]

It's like I can now allow the thoughts to come and I'm no longer ignoring them. I can tell I have a ways to go in feeling all this because I just pushed them down about the counselor while I was seeing her. Now I no longer have to do that and I can tell the difference already!

That's wonderful. I'm trying to learn what works and what doesn't for me, because therapy didn't help me too much. So glad its helping you though. Keep with it and the great work. Here's cheerin you on.

 

[amethist]

Today I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall. :banghead:

 

[PTSDMAMA128191]

@amethist If you wanna talk I'm here.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

To everyone who needs one :hug:!

 

[Lionheart]

I feel a little anxious as I just stopped smoking (again) this morning, but otherwise I am doing really well. Anxiety is at an all time low (all things considered) and I feel happy and grateful. I am light-hearted and at peace. I feel loved and validated.

Prayers and hugs are offered for all who are struggling.

 

[roaminggnome]

Terrified because I'm down dosing off the dose of clonazepam I was on. All under my doctor's direction and care. But I went through benzo withdrawal in August so I'm afraid. (Under a different nurse practitioner I was taken off of it cold turkey). It was very dangerous.

 

[PTSDMAMA128191]

If you would like roaminggnome I can lift you up in prayer. I'm an x addict of 5, march 2014 will make 6 years of sobriety. Even though its different I highly understand how much a struggle detox/withdrawal can be mentally. Here's hopin the best.

 

[roaminggnome]

I'm tired. I hope that waking up at 4 AM isn't the new normal like it used to be.