What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

Indigestion and chest pain. :sick: :depressed:

 

[Britt.f7]

Somewhat fear and apprehension. I still have a miserable cold and I have a doctor's appointment to have my defibrillator checked. I hate that because I can feel my heart spasming. I'm looking forward to having lunch with my sister though. Despite the doctor's appointment and how I feel afterwards. Not pleasant. At least I'm starting to smile.

 

[CraftyCath]

I am so much better. The antibiotics have helped to clear up the sinus and chest infection and although I have a residual cough it is far better than it was.

I still have a big load of latent anxiety because I know I have to confront someone and I'm dreading it.

 

[ill]

I dread confrontations too, CraftyCath. Maybe it would help to reframe it as a discussion about boundaries or as asserting your boundaries instead of a confrontation? Maybe this person will be able to hear and respect what you say without it escalating? I hope so.

 

[DMerish]

@DMerish - this is what I've done with my brother for years. In order to have the semblance of a relationship - I put up with bad behavior. I'm at the crossroads. Now I choose no relationship and it is hard.

Thanks for your comment, Franciemarnie. I understand what you're saying. I considered going no contact with my son. I don't want to minimize your point; however, I think one's relationship with one's brother or sister is different than that of one's children. My son has only once acted similarly towards me, when he was a teen. I'm the parent; the model. IMO a "decent" parent doesn't cut their children off unless there's been a history of abuse, and that's not the case here.

 

[EverOnly358]

To everyone who's having a difficult time, I'm so sorry! I'm hoping things turn around soon, if possible. :hug: Hugs, if you'd like them. @DMerish, I *cannot* believe how rude your son was being to you! You do him a favor, and this is what happens? I'm so sorry! (I would never give up on my kids either, though... even when they drive me crazy.) @franciemarnie, I'm so sorry you've been feeling so terrible. Hang in there. @Ms Spock, I hope you can find other ways to calm yourself and soothe yourself and I'm hoping you feel better soon. All of you are so honest and brave to come here and reach out to others. Be well. @Britt.f7, I hope your cold goes away soon, and y'know how I feel about doctors appointments... hate them. Best of luck today!

What am I feeling? :cautious:

I'm feeling very nervous and uncertain and unable to deal with complications of life today. :unsure: There were certain plans in place, and then everything got switched around, and it drives me crazy! :confused: I do best when there's a plan... I hate it when all the plans fly out the window. :eek: Everyone expects me to know what to do, and how to do it, and when everything has to happen... but how can I do those things if the rug gets pulled out from under me? :dead: I'm trying hard to just deal with life as it is... but, well, that doesn't work either... if I don't have a plan and keep everyone on track, then at the end of the day everyone's upset AT ME because they didn't get what they wanted or what they expected. Frustrating! I'm feeling really frustrated. :banghead: And tired of this! :hungover: And irritated. :shifty:

 

[Tympre]

what am I feeling today? Blue deeeeeeppppp blue outline in the bright red and yellow stripes of anxiety. skin crawling, burning, face flushing anxiety combined with a hefty dose of hopelessness.

 

[DMerish]

EverOnly - Your kindness is so apparent. It is so helpful to get feedback and to know somebody out there understands and empathizes. My son's actions, particularily hanging up the phone on me, are "NO-NO's" in my book. But as I said, his behavior was a-typical. So you don't think I'm someone I'm not, however, (due to being assulted) I no longer put effort into having a relationship with my daughter. Anyhoo, I sure could relate to what you're experiencing today, EverOnly. And I hope things smooth out for you.

Me/Today:
I'm feeling relaxed/calm and satisfied that I've inwardly reconcilled the issue with my son and outwardly took care of the vehicle issue. I will pay the fricking $280 fine (that he should pay but says he doesn't have the money). I'm going to pay it because I do not want the issue to become more expensive and a bigger hassle than it is already. I will also never loan him my car again . . . well, maybe I will when I'm in my 80's and he's in his 60's and I need him to take me back/forth to the doctors :cool:

Otherwise, I'm rather stressed, disorientated, and having a bit of trouble staying focused and remembering things today. This day, and through the 18th are the busiest, longest days that I work throughout the entire year. Yes, I am a "bean counter". :unsure:

 

[Definitely..maybe]

Dizzy and disassociated. I'm just out of it.

 

[franciemarnie]

Though tired, I've got all systems go with being out of breath while sitting and muscles tense. I wake up in fight or flight. I shall take flight the only way I can at the moment and work out. Dreams of blatant symbolism of not being able to nurture myself recently. Drag.

 

[franciemarnie]

Thank you @EverOnly358 for your kind words. I hope your day goes well! No one has any right to blame you for anything if life doesn't go the way they would like. They have free will. We can only do the next right thing. I know the feeling though!

@DMerish - I understand the dif for sure. No question it is different with kids. I can only imagine how complex things are when you have children. I hope you get thru the 18th with the minimalist of stress. "Bean counter" - that's such a cute phrase!

 

[Spiderallis]

The last few days of frantic snow shoveling caught up with me. I'm quite sore and it's messing with my head to rest and recover before attempting to accomplish anything more.