Well, He Is Still Breathing At Least.

[Deleted member 20280]

I place this thread in accomplishments because for me it was just that. The accomplishment that I did not smash a pint glass in his rancid disgusting Rapist Throat.

So,

Today is disability benefit day for Laurie. On this day every fortnight I treat myself to a lunchtime pint at my local.

I went to the butchers and bought the pork steaks for tea. HE! was stood outside. When I came to leave HE! was gone.

So I walked to my Local passing Subway, HE! was stood in the doorway.

HE! then followed ME! down towards the pub.

I went in ordered a pint and stood at the bar. HE! then walked in as calm as you like, stood right next to ME! and ordered a pint as well.

CHOICE!....... Smash the glass on the bar and smash the remnants into his disgusting **rapes 9 yr old boys at knife point* face, or, be the man I am of 44 yrs now, calmly finish my drink, thank the barmaid for her custom and quietly exit the bar, head held high that this is now the third time in as many months this asshole has tried to goad me into assaulting him.

Trust me, if he keeps following me and trying to make me react, one of these days I may well just do that.

Result if I do. One body, Me locked up for Life....... guess what Asshole, you ain't worth me doing jail time for.

ASSHOLE!

 

[desiderata310]

Deep breaths, Laurie.

You're doing well.
Really. Take care of yourself.

I have my own situation coming up like that in a couple of months- going back to my hometown for something I can't miss: my kid's graduation. I have to go! How can I not?! I am concerned (and my therapist is even MORE worried) about my ability to deal with it and stay safe.

You did a fantastic job. I'm proud of you.

I hope I can do as well.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Santa_Laurie curls up into a tiny little Ball and jumps into Desiderata's Pocket to help her get through the graduation.

Strength in numbers will get us through :)

 

[StellaBlue]

Well played - I am very impressed!

 

[sun seeker]

guess what Asshole, you ain't worth me doing jail time for.

Nope, you're right, he's not. Amazing job controlling yourself. I don't expect you enjoyed that beer very much though! Would you be able to afford another one sometime when he's not there?

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Let him live with his horrible memories Laurie, serves him right ;) A vague guess is he wants to be beaten up for what he did, so he can feel better.
Carrying around the memories of what he has done, is its own kind of karma.

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I don't expect you enjoyed that beer very much though! Would you be able to afford another one sometime when he's not there?

Oh I enjoyed it, considering all the patrons were chatting with me when he walked in, they briefly acknowledged his presence and we continued to chat, I doubt very much he actually knows who I am as he has not seen me in 31 years..... I was 13 the last time he saw me.

A vague guess is he wants to be beaten up for what he did,

Only problem here is I won't beat him up!..... When I say we would be left with a BODY!.... I joke not!

 

[TXbandit]

Again, you did the right thing and showed him that he no longer is a threat to you and YOU are the one in control now. I am so proud of you Laurie!! You are very strong and handled that like a real man. He is a coward for following you and trying to entice your rage. Cheers my friend xx

 

[Deleted member 20280]

You are very strong and handled that like a real man.

I have spent the last 25 years being a Man with a stroppy teenage mentality of lash out first and think second.

About time I grew up!

 

[Momofthree]

As other have said Great job! I can't say I would do the same if I ever saw my abuser again... I know where to dump a body though, and no one would ever go looking for his worthless body.

 

[holdenmonty]

I'm proud of you for not acting out against him Laurie. It shows how much self control you have that you didn't. Plus just like you said he isn't worth you going to jail. If you killed him that would be to easy of a way out for him.

 

[Powder]

But I do think that we as a society would greatly benefit if we could mark his forehead with the "mark of Cain" that every rapist and murderer should rightly wear.

Ironically, I think that most people who are this evil don't fool us very long. After a while, it is as if the mark is sort of there anyway, in a subtle way.

As you said, people are not happy to see him and merely suffer his company. That says they are reading something there. Small comfort, I know.

I feel proud of you, and I also understand the feeling that it wouldn't take much to snap.