munkinmama
Silver Member
Today has been extremely long and emotional. I have been on the been so discouraged in the court system. I can not count how many times I felt like throwing in the towel. I have been humiliated, judged unfairly, my parenting ability questioned because of my mental illness. Yet I pick myself up and keep going. This fight is worth it but so exhausting though I feel like this. I wrote this out of frustration was going to send it to my lawyer"
I got to thinking we should address the things in the Affidavit but I have sadly come to the realization that doing anything via the court is pointless. Things have not been in my kids' favor since Child Welfare(CPS) refused to work with me. I will continue to fight for my kids just not in a courtroom. I am in tears right now. To think of everything I did in the past to protect them from an abusive situation was in the end for nothing, me fighting for the kids is for nothing as the evidence proves. I as the other parent am nothing, In a court of law I am nothing because I am not the custodial parent . Anything I do is always wrong yet he comes out like he is flawless. I can not say this often enough I curse my mental illness.Please arrange a meeting with Paul and his lawyer I am done with the court system. I am fighting a pointless battle and it is taking a toll on my health. I raise the white flag I give up."
Today Jellybean was great as usual when i met with the specialist.I had a few people comment on how well behaved she was. There was a couple ( a man and his mom i think) who were telling me about the experience of his ex wife who had a Service Dog. We talked at length about how amazing Service Dogs are and what it takes to train one.I was feeling quite anxious because of meeting a new Dr.While we were waiting Jellybean did a low whine but i was able to get her to stop did not find out why until we got home turns out she had to pee but would not until her vest was off. He was very nice and at first was curious about Jellybean so I told him a bit about her then moved on to why i was there. He looked over the xrays that had been taken when I had my shot. He was very surprised it was not working and the pain was worse. He told me that if the shots do not work there is not many other options. I am to wait a month and he will give me another shot. After my appointment I went and picked up a few things at the grocery store across the parking lot. I had a great talk with the cab driver who drove me home he thought Jellybean was a guard dog and was happy i took the time to educate him.
I got to thinking we should address the things in the Affidavit but I have sadly come to the realization that doing anything via the court is pointless. Things have not been in my kids' favor since Child Welfare(CPS) refused to work with me. I will continue to fight for my kids just not in a courtroom. I am in tears right now. To think of everything I did in the past to protect them from an abusive situation was in the end for nothing, me fighting for the kids is for nothing as the evidence proves. I as the other parent am nothing, In a court of law I am nothing because I am not the custodial parent . Anything I do is always wrong yet he comes out like he is flawless. I can not say this often enough I curse my mental illness.Please arrange a meeting with Paul and his lawyer I am done with the court system. I am fighting a pointless battle and it is taking a toll on my health. I raise the white flag I give up."
Today Jellybean was great as usual when i met with the specialist.I had a few people comment on how well behaved she was. There was a couple ( a man and his mom i think) who were telling me about the experience of his ex wife who had a Service Dog. We talked at length about how amazing Service Dogs are and what it takes to train one.I was feeling quite anxious because of meeting a new Dr.While we were waiting Jellybean did a low whine but i was able to get her to stop did not find out why until we got home turns out she had to pee but would not until her vest was off. He was very nice and at first was curious about Jellybean so I told him a bit about her then moved on to why i was there. He looked over the xrays that had been taken when I had my shot. He was very surprised it was not working and the pain was worse. He told me that if the shots do not work there is not many other options. I am to wait a month and he will give me another shot. After my appointment I went and picked up a few things at the grocery store across the parking lot. I had a great talk with the cab driver who drove me home he thought Jellybean was a guard dog and was happy i took the time to educate him.
