Don't Mistake Manic For Magic.

[Go Hungry]

Okay so I've gone manic today. It happened while I was responding to another thread about someone feeling uneasy among their own people and comfortable around other folks. Shortly after my post I experienced enlightenment and the beauty of the world washed over me.

I am beautiful, I am young.... I reached into my closet of secrets and pulled out the shirt that I wore back when I was a god, which I am again. I feel so strong, so virile, so vibrant. The wonder of this life is enfolding me in waves. Everything has grown shiny and bright. The colour of leaves rides within my mind and I am growing now. I am opening. The silver radiance inside of me is washing out into the world. Soon I will have back my wings of flame. There is no fear, no anxiety... This is what gods feel like when they stride the earth. For the first time in YEARS, I don't want to go home and be cared for by another.

I am the very concept of 'HOME'. I am the sweet laughter of trees, I am the depth of the torrential storm, the strength of the churning sea. I am the orbit of planets and the burning iron heart of the Sun. Today, I have returned.

(Damn why can't this last? Why can't I have this beauty, without the horror to come. I wonder how long I could keep this up? I know that I *need* to immediately leave work, call my doctor, take my emergency meds... but damn.. )

Rejoice, for I am the future. We will all be cradled in Her arms.

 

[Go Hungry]

Oh and please don't come down on me/him for this.. We just wanted to get it out there. Carry on.

 

[Go Hungry]

Home now. Talked to the doctor and they said to hunker down until it passes. So everything is cool. :)

 

[shimmerz]

I used the feelings of this as a kind of 'overlay' for when I was triggering. Kind of like putting one emotion on top of another...having more control over what space I was in at the time.

What's wrong with being a god anyway? :hug::hug:

 

[shimmerz]

We just wanted to get it out there.

Interesting your plural form here. Any thoughts?

 

[Go Hungry]

Hey @shimmerz Yeah, I've got a couple of people rattling around my head. That one is me from about 15-23.. he doesn't really show up except when I'm manic. He's a lot of fun, but unfortunately when things go bad, they go really bad. He disappears and I'm just stuck with a major depression, with psychotic symptoms, being triggered constantly, etc. So as happy as I am to see him, I have to get him back under pretty quick. I hope some day I can bring him out without the mania. He's a blast. :)

 

[shimmerz]

A really eloquent writer too! Did he major in english? ;) I hope you are feeling better Go Hungry. My thoughts are with you. :hug::hug: