You Know You Have PTSD When...

[illusionist]

When I've got to gauge my mood before I accept a sociable drink.....only accept when I'm in a good place.

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you get someone in trouble, possibly getting them fired from their job, (which they have been doing poorly) you worry about what kind of retaliation they will take against you, and you are terrified. (Please pray for me!).

 

[Ronin]

That's on them, and on their employer to decide, non? You've made a suggestion, you're not the deciding boss, and you were concerned about the quality of their work, which is hardly something you're doing badly with. Their poor performance is the only thing to blame, imo. But there's offered thoughts of comfort, @SheilaKathy.

 

[rainy_daze]

You know you have PTSD when:

You are in the middle of a flashback, standing frozen in the room, and your partner comes to kiss you, so you recoil and say "nnnjhshdfshf!". He apologises and you apologise, and explain you were miles away. He says he knows this, and it is okay. [I'm pretty lucky that way]

You keep seeing your abusers eyes. They are frightening.

You feel like you can't breathe. You feel smothered, held down, small and helpless.

You want to numb the pain with drugs [alcohol is a drug too, you know. It intrigues me when people think otherwise because it is more socially acceptable].

You smoke cigarettes instead of tolerating your own distress levels.

You need a lot of time to yourself and sometimes are hurt easily or offended.

^ Having said all that I'm actually coping [as best as I think I have ever coped, even though I'm struggling at the same time :rolleyes::confused: ugh, I'll roll with it] : I'm not self-medicating, engaging with life and carrying on. I deserve a life where I'm managing and not at the mercy of the past.

 

[Changing4Best]

@Cashew Thanks, but the man has the key to every person's apartment that lives here. He was "missing in action" today, whereas he normally is here every day. Furthermore, there is a bunch of work that he didn't do, but should have done ages ago. This was pointed out to management's boss yesterday. If he has not been fired, why wasn't he here today doing that work that he should have done? That is what has me thinking he got fired. However, tomorrow will be the deciding day, as management wasn't here today, but is due in tomorrow. I honestly hope he did get fired; I have never trusted him. My instincts told me long ago that he is a seedy person, not to be trusted at all! We shall see....

 

[rainy_daze]

honey that ain't PTSD

It's a stressor. It's something to add into the stress cup. I think as time goes on you get better at recognising what is what. That is good you pointed that out Alba :tup:.

 

[Ocean5]

You want to numb the pain with drugs [alcohol is a drug too, you know.

That is so true about alcohol.

You need a lot of time to yourself and sometimes are hurt easily or offended.

I never understood that about myself. Needing so much time alone...I called it "decompression time" since a teenager.

 

[Anrish]

When you rather stay in your car (in the heat) than waiting outside to avoid people.

 

[illusionist]

When someone says " where's the day gone?".....as if it's something unusual.

 

[illusionist]

When you provide months of laughter for your friends, when they remind themselves of the times you went into fright mode.......I'm years down the line of having Ptsd, so I can laugh at those moments.

 

[Let It Be]

...when all you hear and see is the forecast for the weekend and you're becoming anxious as you're hearing over and over about how it is "severe weather alert day today and tomorrow".

I guess I'm looking forward to Sunday when the forecast is for sunny skies and I'll be able to breathe again.

My car and me lived through one tornando so I know what damage bad weather can be like. Don't even like to hear the sierens go off every week for their weekly test.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you avoid sleep because you're worried about having a nightmare that makes you wake up anxious and get triggered and you end up having a flashback.

When you come to this thread and rewrite a post 47 times because you're not sure if it makes sense.