I Want To Give Up Now..

[J_trustno1]

I have been working in this Civil and Environmental engineering consultancy for the last 5 months plus. The place was okay to begin with. I tried making contacts and I wasn't getting much friendly response. My contract finishes in a months time and I asked my manager regarding my contract and variety of work opportunities about a month ago.

He never got back to me, and was putting it off for 2.5 months. When I tried asking him 2 weeks ago, he said he'll get back to me on that asap but he never did until last Friday. That is when him and the HR Indian lady grabbed me off from my desk without making a formal meeting or informing be before hand. They took me on second floor where the Indian lady did all the talking and said the following:

"We won't be extending your contract because this work isn't stimulating you like you have told us. Others have managed to adapt but you haven't. We have Learned a lesson from hiring you and won't be hiring anyone with that much qualification or what's on a piece of paper. we will be looking for other skills apart from qualifications."


Issues:

The manager initially told us that we can discuss our career goals with him in that personal development meeting which he held 2.5 months ago. When I brought to his attention that I need more work and something more challenging. He promised me that he'll discuss this matter with other departments and will find a suitable role for me. However, he comes back to me after 2.5 months to tell me that I am not suitable for this job!!!!!

The manager didn't do the talking but the HR Indian lady did to avoid cultural discrimination (since I am an Indian). He looked down the entire time while she was saying all that nonsense.

The Indian lady (HR) always tried getting information out of me and was always diplomatic towards me. I didn't know her true colors till that day in that meeting room when she told me that hiring me was a mistake made by them!


Myself:

I am upset! I feel I am going to struggle finding another job because it took me 1.5 years to get this job and God knows how many more years it'll take me to find another job.

I feel useless and a failure because I am jobless. I have no close friend (i.e. relationship wise) who will hug me tight and say "it's going to be alright". I feel I am no where in life but a huge failure. I wasted all this time with education to get no where in life :( , neither career wise nor relationships wise :(. The kind of guys I attract are always bullies and display similar traits to my abusers. I just have bad luck :(

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I'm sorry I'm at opposite side of the world from you or I would hug you, offering you hugs :hug: :hug: :hug: and, it's going to be alright, Jass.

 

[Sammyiam]

I'm so sorry Jess, I can say it will be ok if you are ok with me saying it to you. I could even manage a hug as well if you would like one. Sometimes jobs just don't work out Jess its just called life. Sometimes it's just crap and sometimes it works out. You cannot let this beat you, you are better than that. Please hold your head up that you have done your best, and you will get another job that will be better than this one.

Please take care

Sammy

 

[J_trustno1]

Then there is this B*tch at work who keeps trying to get this information out of me. She keeps asking me indirect questions so that I will tell her that I am kicked out of work. She is the same woman who tried telling me to leave this place from day 1 she started working there. And guess what?? She's also an Indian!

That is the reason why I hate my own kind because they make great bullies, hypocrites and diplomats!

 

[Sammyiam]

Jess it won't be because they are Black, white, blue, pink, Indian, or whatever, bullies are bullies they don't care what colour or race they are, they are just bullies. Don't let it colour your whole race just because you have had bad horrible dealings with just a few. Like sexual abuse Jess it doesn't just happen to one colour or one race, it is the person not their colour or race.

 

[J_trustno1]

You are very right Sammy. It's just that I'm very upset. She is trying to put salt on my wounds and it is pissing me off :( . I don't go around telling people how miserable their lives are then why the hell can't she mind her own business?

 

[Sammyiam]

She is a bullie Jess, that's what bullies do they try to get to you. They seem to get off on making people sad and being mean to people. Don't let her win she is the one who is sad and if she could see what it's like to be on the other end of what she is doing I think she would feel a little different. She would then know what it feels like to hurt and feel sad.

 

[J_trustno1]

Thanks Sammy. I haven't been sleeping or eating properly since Friday. I cried a lot on Friday and cried today. Getting acne on my body and headaches due to anxiety :(

 

[littlelostchild]

(((Jess)))
I'm sorry this has happened and the bullying is awful.
Here is something to think about that makes your situation different from before - you now have a job to put on your resume! You did the job really well and we're looking for harder work, that is not a bad reason for your contract not to be renewed as you look for a better job.
You now have experience and it sounds like you could use a different working environment anyway.
I know it's really difficult right now, but I've found that good things can come out of tough situations.

 

[J_trustno1]

Thanks @littlelostchild :hug:s. I just feel hopeless right now because I have no clue what kind of jobs to look for, and what interests me? I know for sure that I don't want to end up in a laboratory or teaching high school kids or work in a bank. For me it has more to do with job satisfaction than just doing anything for the sake of money. It's just hard to know what I like anymore :(

 

[BlueDream]

Hi Jass_T
My experience with HR was bad, I have never understood how someone could have a job firing people and feel good about themselves.
But you dear, are a bright individual who could not be challenged by this company. They basically said they will no longer be hiring ppl like you, because they can't stuff you in an office and pacify you with their boring projects. They are not a forward looking company, they want blind sheep!! Be glad you don't fit the mold!!
Look for a company that has passion!! Somewhere that will encourage you, not stifle you.
I wish you the best of luck!!
Big Hugs coming your way!!

 

[Anarchy]

So much for claims of staff development and careers...

Sorry that you got that Jess.

Where next? Civils is very cyclical and the current economic bubble is bursting big time, just look at the news coming out of China to see what's happening.

You are getting out of the door before the rush. Bet you that most of the guys in there will be redundant in 18 months.

You are in kiwi land, big exporter of food, any food plants looking for environmental chemists to join them? You now have experience in the field.

Hugs
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