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Has Anyone Delt With A Substance Abuse Problem?

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Blackbird89

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Over the past eight years, I've struggled with benzo, dilaudid and heroin. I use them to dissociated and I'm currently two years clean thanks to my two year old daughter but the cravings are coming back to me and hitting me hard.

Should I speak with my therapist before my next appointment? Go to an NA a meeting (I've never been and I don't know what to expect)? Or speak with my physician?

Thanks in advance.
 
Sadly, most people on prescribed meds are already addicts, and they don't even know it. Withdrawal from some of these medicines puts many illegal drugs to shame. I personally have never been on street drugs, but I know many who have been, including my brother, who committed suicide a few years ago.
 
It is very common. Whether it be Rx drugs, street drugs, alcohol or any combination of.

I would suggest any of the things you mentioned. Sounds like your on the right mental track to look for things to help you avoid falling off the wagon.

Or try all of them. I haven't done a NA or AA meeting either, so I can't tell you exactly what it's like. But I know that its only as much of a commitment as you want it to be. So there is no harm in going once.

Kids are definitely a great reason to stay clean.
 
My daughter saved my life and I can't wait until she's old enough for me to thank her for it. I was at rock bottom when I got pregnant.

The benzo addiction has been an on and off thing since 2008 and the Dilaudid started after spinal surgery ( oh the irony),last November and I was able to kick the habit myself.

I've never been to an NA meeting and I'm a little scared to go to one because I'm not a religious person and I have issues verbalizing what I've been through. I'm used to drawing and writing it out for therapy. Can anyone explain an NA meeting?
 
NA groups vary wildly from one another. Everything from super posh and very solution focused, to serious I've been in nicer crack-houses with people using in the hallways and throwing furniture in the room between bouts of horror stories. In general the nicer the area, the longer the recovery time, and more solution based the meetings are.

There really are all kinds of meetings, though. From hiking at dawn up a mountainside, to a cozy room with a fireplace above an artsy cafe, to a greenhouse meeting in the country, to church basements damn near everywhere. Similarly, some focus on certain drugs (there are opiate meetings, Rx meetings, stimulant meetings, etc.). If you're going to try NA? I would commit to going to at least 7 meetings (each on a different day of the week, each in a different location) to get a feel for all the different local "flavors".

I very strongly recommend babysitting. People are not only clearly talking about drugs, but there are often people in crisis; suicide, rape, child abuse, etc. If there aren't a lot of NA meetings nearby, or none provide childcare? AA is a much larger organization.

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I am neither for nor against 12-Step programs. They're helpful for a lot of people. Not helpful for others. I spent a few years in the program, but I'm not an addict, even though I've picked up a few physical addictions here & there. Kicking sucks. But for me there was nothing beyond the basic kick. I was abusing anything available to cover up or manage PTSD symptoms. Went to treatment, and the center caught on to that pretty quick... So to spite them (and not have to face trauma stuff) I stayed clean for a few years. Eminently distracting, not having to face what the real problem was, and I did learn some things. Quite a lot, in point of fact. But substance abuse was a symptom of my problems, not my problem itself.
 
I've been to a few NA meetings and they can really vary. Best to find one that works for you. I go to AA and know it's not so much about what they are, but what I can make of it. The religion thing doesn't have to be a problem. Most meetings are very tollerant and understanding of their many agnostic and few atheistic members.

My unperscribed medicine of choice was alcohol. I eventually gave it up becasue of the side effects, and it got to the point where the symptoms of the PTSD could not be sedated.

One more thing I have come to understand. PTSD and addiction are not the same thing. Some people in a 12 program will misunderstand when you talk about PTSD. It's okay to move slowly. Observe others to find out where you should start and how far you can go.
 
I have been on prescription drugs, including the Benzo called Clonazepam (spelling might be wrong). I was able to get off this Benzo with the help of my Nurse Practitioner, who prescribed Amnytriptoline (might not be spelled correctly). This medicine was for my anxiety and also Restless Legs Syndrome (RLS). I take it at bedtime, which is also when I used to take the Clonazepam. It is said to be highly habit forming, and when I went off it, the DOctor had me taper off of it slowly. She even had the druggist put these instructions on the bottle for me.

I was also a food addict, which you might not think of as substance abuse, but it can be. I was put onto Xyprexa for my Bipolar (Probably not the right spelling, sorry), anyway, I gained weight from 135 pounds to 195 pounds in 4 months (USA weight measurement)! The MD who prescribed it said that I might gain a little weight! I wonder what he thinks in A LOT OF WEIGHT!!!!! Also, I attempted suicide while I was on it, so I hope you are not taking it, but if you are, contact your doctor or nurse and get something else prescribed instead.

I wish you the best with all this, and if it is OK, I will pray for you too.
 
a little scared to go to one because I'm not a religious person

Honestly this was the primary reason I didn't go to AA. I won't go into too much detail as my religious beliefs are umm... Not always received well.

Basically, I refuse to give God credit for something I quit on my own.

But I don't know how strongly religion is infused with those programs in practice. From what @FridayJones and @Intrepid said, there is probably one out there even I could do well in.

Thanks Friday & Intrepid. I'll have to keep that in mind should I fall off my wagon.
 
Hey @Blackbird89. Welcome to the forum.

I am an alcoholic, pothead and addict, 3 years clean and sober. Congrats on your clean time. It is no small feat to get clean and stay clean. I was introduced to AA when I was pregnant with my first son.

I have been going to AA for about 4 1/2 years. I was initially turned off by the god thing but thankfully no one (that I have come across) pushes religion or spirituality. The Steps include the willingness to believe there is a higher power, something greater than oneself. My higher power is partly the AA group as a whole and whatever that energy is out there in the universe. It works for me. There are a lot of atheists and agnostics in the program.

I haven't been to NA meetings but AA meetings deal a lot with alcoholics/addicts talking about what's going on in their lives (their struggles, issues, obsessions, etc) and getting support from the others. The program basically suggests that you get a sponsor, complete the 12 Steps with your sponsor, go to meetings, and don't pick up a drink or a drug. One day at a time.

Lots of people have gotten sober and stayed sober without the help of a 12 Step program too. Whatever works for each individual.

Again, welcome to the forum. I hope you find it supportive and helpful.
 
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