Survivor41
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Howdy y'all,
I stumbled upon this looking to Google to answer some questions, as I tend to do in areas involving my PTSD. I don't like to talk about any of my dilemmas with my friends, as I don't expect them to understand how things work for me, plus, I don't want to be the Debbie-Downer. Hopefully I will find the answers or input I'm looking for here.
I got my PTSD from being raped and denied it until it was put on paper just this past May, as I got in a one-vehicle accident due to having a flashback while driving. I thought I was dead as my car rolled and flipped a total of seven times with my head out the window getting crushed under the car. I reckon this won't help my case in the long run, but it sure helped me realize how much control I had let my past have over me.
I've decided to take control back after miscarrying while going through a rough spell dealing with my shadow, and more importantly, after my near-death experience. I wouldn't recommend my path to recovery to everyone, but I don't get flashbacks anymore during sex due to having a very good friend who also happens to be a friend with benefits that has taken the patience to hear me out and work with me through it. I trust him, and now I can enjoy sex without memories getting in the way. I don't beat myself up and degrade myself anymore because I decided to take control and become a part of something bigger- the Army.
I've lost a close, serious relationship due to PTSD and have been too distant and afraid to try again. Fear of judgement, numbness, and anxiety are things I still battle with but hope to overcome. I was a kid that grew up in a household haunted and dictated by PTSD, and I refuse to let it haunt me or anyone I'm close to to the point of controlling anymore.
I stumbled upon this looking to Google to answer some questions, as I tend to do in areas involving my PTSD. I don't like to talk about any of my dilemmas with my friends, as I don't expect them to understand how things work for me, plus, I don't want to be the Debbie-Downer. Hopefully I will find the answers or input I'm looking for here.
I got my PTSD from being raped and denied it until it was put on paper just this past May, as I got in a one-vehicle accident due to having a flashback while driving. I thought I was dead as my car rolled and flipped a total of seven times with my head out the window getting crushed under the car. I reckon this won't help my case in the long run, but it sure helped me realize how much control I had let my past have over me.
I've decided to take control back after miscarrying while going through a rough spell dealing with my shadow, and more importantly, after my near-death experience. I wouldn't recommend my path to recovery to everyone, but I don't get flashbacks anymore during sex due to having a very good friend who also happens to be a friend with benefits that has taken the patience to hear me out and work with me through it. I trust him, and now I can enjoy sex without memories getting in the way. I don't beat myself up and degrade myself anymore because I decided to take control and become a part of something bigger- the Army.
I've lost a close, serious relationship due to PTSD and have been too distant and afraid to try again. Fear of judgement, numbness, and anxiety are things I still battle with but hope to overcome. I was a kid that grew up in a household haunted and dictated by PTSD, and I refuse to let it haunt me or anyone I'm close to to the point of controlling anymore.
