sonicwhite
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When I dream of the home i grew up in or the home in Nashville they get intense for no reason. They are vivid. When I went to see my mome in 2011 I walk to the school I grew up in. I got this sense that I was in a dream again. All the nasty reverse nastigia was gripping. It made me feel as tho I was back in the dream. So when I visited her three years later I ignored the feeling and I was ok. My dreams suck. I had more fights with my dad and stepmom then I did with my stepdad but I always dream of him. He ruined a family. My siblings except my sister have cut ties with my mom. My stepdad has said you must give them up. Wulp, I can careless about the half sister I know and my mom. My dad is the only one that truly has great insight and wants to help. My mom just wants to preach.
I love my siblings but I don't consider Chloe my sister since I don't know her. It's going to be strange when we all get together for some funeral and we don't even make eye contact. My stepdad has put such a wedge between mom and my brothers that we just don't call her anymore. I accepted that she wants nothing to do with us and I'm ok with that. I hate the dreams of my stepdad that intruded into a marraige that belonged to my dad. Woe to those. You know most the time when I claim something to happen t usually does.
If I have a family I'm going to try to always listen to her. I will defend myself but I wNt to be able to love her so much that I would die for her.if we divorce than I'll never marry again. I have went eleven years without a true loving relationship. So I know how to bridle my own body. Life sucks atm. I'm getting really sick of all the wrong that has been done. I'm about to take matters into my own hands.
It may get pretty nasty.
I love my siblings but I don't consider Chloe my sister since I don't know her. It's going to be strange when we all get together for some funeral and we don't even make eye contact. My stepdad has put such a wedge between mom and my brothers that we just don't call her anymore. I accepted that she wants nothing to do with us and I'm ok with that. I hate the dreams of my stepdad that intruded into a marraige that belonged to my dad. Woe to those. You know most the time when I claim something to happen t usually does.
If I have a family I'm going to try to always listen to her. I will defend myself but I wNt to be able to love her so much that I would die for her.if we divorce than I'll never marry again. I have went eleven years without a true loving relationship. So I know how to bridle my own body. Life sucks atm. I'm getting really sick of all the wrong that has been done. I'm about to take matters into my own hands.
It may get pretty nasty.
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