Unknown Victim
Bronze Member
I've only recently noticed that I fit in the PTSD group. I had a serious medical problem at 4 year old with several trauma incidents. When I was 5 years old, I had problems sleeping with nightmares and severe fear of the dark. I never cried to my parents about any of this, I don't know if I didn't trust them or what. I'm trying to figure out why I didn't tell them about any of this. So as I grew up, the same silence remained for other problems. I do things against the legal system including drug abuse.
The point I'm getting at is do I have my own moral principle when I didn't trust my parents and their parenting. I've done some horrible thing to people that many of you would deem unacceptable. At around 12, I did something that would make another PTSD victim. I don't want sympathy or understanding. There are people that would say I belong in prison but I'm too good cover up my tracks. I recently had bouts with an unbeatable enemy. I'm trying to question me and my moral principle. Laws are meant to be broken since I don't trust anyone. As an example, my last girlfriend I never trusted. My whole life is a lie. I'm so depressed. I lost all my money and maxed out my credit cards. The worst I been financially in my life. Yet, I'm the happiest I've ever been or it's relief. It's a crazy life.
The point I'm getting at is do I have my own moral principle when I didn't trust my parents and their parenting. I've done some horrible thing to people that many of you would deem unacceptable. At around 12, I did something that would make another PTSD victim. I don't want sympathy or understanding. There are people that would say I belong in prison but I'm too good cover up my tracks. I recently had bouts with an unbeatable enemy. I'm trying to question me and my moral principle. Laws are meant to be broken since I don't trust anyone. As an example, my last girlfriend I never trusted. My whole life is a lie. I'm so depressed. I lost all my money and maxed out my credit cards. The worst I been financially in my life. Yet, I'm the happiest I've ever been or it's relief. It's a crazy life.
