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I'm on a mood stabilizer, prn for anxiety, antipsychotic and sleeping meds. I've been on a lot psychiatric drugs in the past and I didn't like the side effects and eventually I didn't need to be on them. Time went by and things were ok. Until they weren't. I'm disappointed that I have to take...

Thank you for your kind words. I feel alone a lot when it comes to my mental health, especially when my depression gets bad. I wish you the best

When my major depression gets really low, that's when flashbacks happen, feeling very alone, and don't want to do anything out of the house. I struggle with change and loss. My best friend died- 12 yr old golden retriever, currently one of my doctors is leaving, my uncle died and my boss...

It really means a lot to us that you're understanding and non judgemental. I think a few previous posts showed the parts decline therefore the comments, while some might be accurate, I found them pretty insecure. I think my parts can't handle the secrets from so much trauma and it's boiling...

Dissociative identity disorder, and PTSD with psychotic features amongst other dx. We had some hallucination periods last year and although distressing, we tried very hard to hide them. Time went by and although they never went away, the severity decreased. Fast forward to now, and it's gotten...

I've been married for 21 years and it's had its ups and downs but who doesn't. For the 3rd time that I know of, my husband has been texting another lady and receiving and/or sending pictures. He left his phone on the counter to go do something and I couldn't resist the urge to read the texts...

Today was the first time one of my angry dissociative parts was able to hold a conversation with my therapist without ruining it. I was told the discussion went well but not flawless of course. I feel weird now. Not connected. I don't know how to even describe it other than it feels like the...

Thank you everyone for your responses. I agree, it's my choice. It's my choice to let them bother me and consume so much mental energy. I need to make a change and continue finding ways to mind my own business and focus on what I need to. Looking back at the original post has made me more aware...

Where I live, finding an apartment for rent is basically impossible. Corporations are buying up property and raising prices drastically pushing locals out so yes technically I have a choice but then I'd be homeless. Just sucks for the rest of us who follow expectations, rules, laws and common...

I live in a old house that's converted into 3 units. Not ideal but can't buy a house in this market despite my husband and I working full time making what used to be a good salary. Anyway, in the 11 years we've been here, we've never had terrible neighbors like we do now. I'm convinced the...

I'm miserable. I've been in therapy for ever trying to work on myself so I can manage this so called life. In the meantime, my husband doesn't buy into "psych babble bullshit" as he says and doesn't feel the need to pay someone to talk to when he has me. This is beyond infuriating and has only...

During the summer it can be 9:00pm and still not dark. Now, it'll be around 415pm. Just around the time I'm heading home. It's depressing, I wake up and the first thing that comes to my mind- I can't wait to go back to bed. I don't sleep much either. Random question but those who have DID- does...

My husband and I can never had a conversation when conflicts arise. The reasons being- When the talking begins, it always starts with him. He has a different communication style and wants to talk about it and solve it. I'm the opposite: I can't process information quickly and definitely don't...

Deep depression means we are exhausted from everything, body aches, migraines, easily triggered by just about everything leading to carry on a lot of anger. Then add DID and Borderline and every other dx. I'm surrounded by people around us who view mental health as something that will just go...

Today was the first time I went to the place my dog and I hiked pretty much everyday for years. I sat alone in my car and talked to him. I reminded him of all the fun times we had, all the pure love he gave me and I told him it was an honor to be his mom. Maybe some people will relate to the...

It's rare I feel happiness anymore. The pleasure of doing things feels daunting. Instead of my parts being vocal about their thoughts and opinions, it's not worth it and we've shut down knowing no one wants to hear it. We've been through these periods throughout out our entire life. And it's...

Thank you for your thoughtful response. I've had parts all my life, they are my family so some help, while others don't (or at least not in the same way) but it's as if we lead a double secret hidden life. We have coping skills but willfulness must be conquered first.

Thank you, I appreciate your response. Especially helping to remind us that we aren't alone when we feel the opposite.

Something we've struggled alone with most of our lives before we realized DID existed. We just thought everyone thought like us. Now that my t knows of all the parts and is the ONLY one who knows, we have tried to share more but not wanting to only rely on her cause we don't have any friends...

Does anyone go through stages of being highly triggered, irritable, always on guard. After that phase, then become almost mute and numb to everything. Then the circle starts again?

Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way, maybe not. Changes in life that are not avoidable but can be bittersweet right? Depends on ones interpretation. Although difficult, can still be the same person at work, appear normal. Not us. I have 15+ parts, some are much more vocal, vary in age...

We hate when our t takes vacation. There is something deeply programmed into us when it comes to saying bye. Not bye forever but it feels that way too the parts. We have tried talking with the parts, reassure them, and the list goes on. I hate this the most of all my issues. It's sad, and...

I don't have a lot of energy left. What we do have a lot of- pain, frustration, confusion, uncertainty, fear etc. all of the parts are very sad. So sad

I have to vent to someone about it because we feel alone. Based on the last two weeks and how a part was finally able to speak out loud and formulate a sentence to tell our t something. I don't like using the word progress and I'll leave it at that. What I do want to say is how physically and...

I really hope this will make sense. I have been in trauma therapy for a long time. I have many "parts" that exist within (did). And they are all different from each other - some outgoing, some young, some not so nice, one evil, and lost goes on. We like our therapist and she helps us a lot...