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Hi, Seems that I am avoiding talking about SA in my T Sessions. Any tips how to get working on this? Thanks

Yes, I am currently studying and practicing a workbook about complex trauma and different techniques how to regulate. Thanks for this.

Hi, I started bingeeating again when I started to realize that I had complex trauma. Topweight was 136kg. Now already lost 7 kg and I am at 129kg. Why I binge? To fill the emptyness that I feel. To calm me down when I am full of rage, angst, sorrow, grief. Any tips on how to deal with this...

Yes, working with T. Yeah, it is interesting how it fluctuates.

Hi, Friday had an EMDR session on anger, rage. Today after last nights flashbacks/nightmares about my mother trying to crash the car with me in it and me trying to keep us on the road, I feel drained. Next week I start volunteerwork one day a week in a kitchen for the homeless and less...

Yeah, still having issues with accepting that hence the rage

Thank for this Thanks for this. I often feel like a kid when reprocessing or even learning basic coping skills, that I now am teaching to my girlfriend her 6 and 8 year old boys. Big chunks of basic growing up skills are missing or were not taught to me as a kid, teenager, young adult and so...

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Hi, Yesterday I did an online EMDR session on anger. First question from my psychologist was: 'Where does your anger come from?' My anger is almost always there. About the emotional abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, physical abuse, relentless bullying on a daily basis for more than a...

Hi, Since last week I have studying my stabilazation course of CBT from my trauma therapy sessions and it seems, feels that I am only now processing, remembering and executing the material and excercices that I am reading and studying. Finally my mindfog is clearing up. 2.5 years of...

Hi, Here in Belgium there is a shortage in vvolunteers so they are happy with open arms for any help. The work itself is in the kitchen, preparing veggies for the chef to use for the 3 course meal for 1.50€. Mainly for people who are homeless or in financial troubles. In the past I have also...

Hi, Next monday I am going to check out a place to start volunteerwork. Any tips and tricks from anybody? Looking forward to of. Peace

Postponed the session for 2 weeks. Talked about other yuckness that has risen to my full awareness. My therapist told me that its a lot with me. I replied yeah its pretty deranged. She replied; at a bare minimum you could call it deranged. And yet it seems and feels all so normal kinda like a...

Hi, Tomorrow we have an EMDR session planned about my mother and her masturbating next to me from 10 to 14 years old while obligating me to sleep in her bedroom in the twinbed, when I was already acustomed to sleeping alone from early age when my abusive, violent, narcissistic, alcoholic...

Hi, On a good dat I feel like I can do any job. On a bad day especially after a horrible night of reliving stuff from my past, I feel like f*ckit I'll just be on dissability untill I die. I am 40 years old and today I am in a what does it matter if I go work or not. As long as I have a roof...

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Happy Christmas to all. Patchîng new good safe memories over the old ones. When I succeed in this, and yesterday already went pretty good, victory is mine! A very big thank you to every person who makes this website a safehaven. Best port in the universe to harbour when navigating going in...

Feeling The Blame I Do. It has a hold on me. Everytime I think I am out... it pulls me back in. Black sheep I still am, and when I become more succesfull... wauw... amazed by the reactions that I get from siblings and others... But succes will be my best revenge

Hi, I still can 't put into words what is going with me right now... Alexithimia according to the Body keeps score. The glooming hollow veil that hangs over this time of year makes me feel dismally alone. Even amongst people. I cried today when I listened to Eminem's cleaning out my closet...

Thank you for this. Copy paste on what is going at the moment with me. More selfcare seems the solution. Thx again.

the overdoing and being a human doing indeed of balance and a human being is mosdef a part of it. Thanks for the feedback

Doing a lot and not laying down and resting. During the last week I have rested a lot which was good, but then the overal body pain kicks in. Its frustrating...

Hi, Is it normal when getting out of hyperarousal that I am having lowerbackpain and radiating pain in my legs, feet, hands, shoulders etcetera? Everytime when mentally I am getting better this happens... Open to feedback. Thanks.

Hi, Reading the Body keeps score made me aware that my brain is damaged from chronic childhood trauma. What can I do to heal my brain? Thanks

Last session traumatherapy was online at friday. Today 3 days later exhausted, also sick from a cold i guess. Very lucid and intense dreams. Some good, some flashbacks, some nightmares and some mixed al in one.. My legs feel as if I played a whole basketballgame the evening before at my maximum...