5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Chiqui]

1 I don' t "have to" be punished, neither seek for punishment because I have desobey the cult rules.

2 This is following on my head for the last few days. I am a free adult now. This is stupid and so real at the same time!!

3 Nobody is going to ring and blame you. I spot the wrong thought/action and two other people, that I have set up as dominant figures, harrase and blame me for my "mistakes" , all on my mind!!
4 My faults are: I have invited a male friend to stay with us one night without asking for permission first. I have gone to the theatre and spend 8€ on leissure for ME. I have joined a weekly class and SPEND MONEY on me.
5 I need to replace a broken glasses and have my teeth repaired. I feel like shit. I neglect myself and support others. Bummm

 

[Lionheart]

When it comes to certain people,...it's "not my circus, not my monkeys!!!" *(I can't take on everyone's problems).
I am happy that I got rid of some toxic people from my life (but, it still feels like loss).
I think that things will soon improve.
I wish I had a significant other,....I am lonely.
I think I am going to be alright in the long run.
.

 

[Muttly]

1) So, my doctor thinks I most likely need surgery. On to the orthopedist and MRI once the referrals go through. I really, really, really don't want to have surgery
2) I could skip painful exams too. I am usually very stoic when it comes to pain but when he moved my leg that one way I thought I was going to jump right off the table... and what did I say... "holy moly motherless goat!". At least I politely swore. heh
3) the boyfriend situation really sucks right now... or I suck. or something
4) tomorrow I have to pull my shit together and try to be functional again
5) And still no email

 

[BM2A]

Its my little girls MRI Thursday and I'm praying its going to be good news

Trying to act like everything is fine at at home everywhere is tiring

Ignoring the horrible work tensions, they will not get past my boundaries.

Why do people keep stealing my bushes? Why??! Do you need a plant that badly? Take them I don't care

Just keep coming back to the MRI, not sure she will be able to keep still for it. Every test checking for cancer for her is going to be stressful I accept this.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am so sorry, prayers for you and your family.:hug:

 

[BM2A]

Thankyou Rain xx She s survived Leukemia once aged 3. And this is to check there s nothing there that shouldn't be the Dr said, because of some new symptoms. She s 8 now, I just want to protect her.

 

[Chiqui]

1 Feeling better with myself
2 Distorted thinking stink
3 So the based erratic and disgusting thoughts about what I deserve from the cult ideology are running free on me.
4 Why I don't get mad with this and change? Ah, because I can't, feel drained, feel powerless. Good job, f*cking bastards!!
5 BUT, what I feel is It not Who and how I am like. I Will keep reclaming MY rights back!

 

[Muttly]

@BM2A That's one of the hardest things I can imagine. Sending support your way.

1) I need to get my *ss moving and get to work. I am so exhausted I just want to call in sick
2) I really, really just want to hurry up and get the mri. I want to know how bad everything is and get on the correct path for healing. I have a bad feeling it's going to be all kinds of L&I hassle. Please just fix me
3) I can't afford a sick day. blah. get moving
4) Today is the day I decided to clean up my act. Less drinking (not a normal thing for me). Eat healthier. More living in the now if possible
5) heh, I wrote 1 through 4 this morning but apparently never finished. sheesh

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

• Once a system or product is created to solve a problem, the need for that system or product will likely die once the problem is solved.
• That explains a whole hell of a lot in seeing how our needs are rapidly increasing rather than decreasing.
  
• Wouldn't it be more beneficial to our quality of life, overall, if solving the problems we have was incentive enough to make it actually happen, rather than complicating things even further down the line by adding yet another problem, then another, and so on, and so on?
  
• Ass backwards thinking has led us straight to some dire shit shows, that's for sure.
• May we all find the healthiest means to sustainably meet our actual needs and actually solve our problematic issues while not creating even more in the process thanks to the systems and products currently made available.

 

[Anrish]

1. My Tuesday felt like a Monday - still shaken inside from yesterday.
2. The flat is kind of calm without Cleo - and I feel like I have more time. That is not supposed to sound mean.
3. I am so damn tired.
4. Received a whole bunch of lovely postcards today.
5. Why, why, why...!?

 

[Chiqui]

1 Oh, yes @Anrish . I slept 9 hours and awaked wanting to kill everyone near me :eek: No rest at all. Nightmares influence during the day runs by itself. Hope your resting time gets better :hug:
2 Positive thinking and whisfull thoughts don't work. But some realistic attitute do.
3 Rainning and apostasy
4 Keeping some hope one myself. Sense of being on charge :woot::wideeyed: May be a delusion, but it is what I have right now.
5 Wanna a better life for me

 

[jaccat]

I did a brave thing and tried something new- a turmeric latte.
I think I dyed half my kitchen and myself in the process.
Turmeric lattes are not for me. But that's okay.
I may try a gingerbread smoothie tomorrow.
Alternatively, I could give in and get one of the new flavoured hot chocolates from my favourite cafe.