5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Anrish]

1. I'm shocked about what happend in Belgium.
2. I'm not surprised about what happened in Belgium.
3. I'm worried about my colleagues out there.
4. I need to cook something.
5. I get angry about the media companies.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

1. Contemplating what constitutes bizarre
2. Look up the meaning of bizarre: very strange or unusual, especially so as to cause interest or amusement
3. Realizing I used to be bizarre quite often, it was a great stress reliever
4. Remembering not everyone found my bizarre moments interesting or amusing and while it eased my stress, it created stress for others. I know this from the looks on the bus and truck drivers faces when I ran in front of them to cross the street. While I found it exhilarating and hysterically funny, it was definite stress on those drivers.
5. Knowing I don't do it now cause I'm too old, too fat and my reflexes are too slow but I would if I could.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Yes terrible, re: Belgium.. :( I had had no news on. :( :cry:
2. Am very fortunate to be off today, but sister's bf at hosp (test), & I too am exhausted. I hope I can escape away.
3. As excrutiatingly difficult, at times, outside stressors can be, it's the difficulty of living within myself that becomes unbearable.
4. Too many thoughts to add 2 more.

 

[jaccat]

I'm frustrated with my performance at yoga.
Physio was interesting. Turns out my problems are purely muscular.
I'm holding up well considering how much I've got on this week.
I keep thinking as if my cat is still here and every time it hurts. Never realised how much I thought of him.
Really hoping I get some sleep tonight.

 

[Recovery4Me]

1. When I read the news, I often become sick to my stomach and tears roll down without sound: this is why I pray.
2. When I was in my teens, I had believed the wars would stop in respect to each other, the planet and for our children.
3. Everyday, as I walk to the bus, I see the homeless trying to survive...so many homeless.
4. I decided turkey and sage dressing would comfort me within the aromas that offer gratitude for my life.
5. My heart often pangs, yet I would rather feel, waiting for those breathless moments of beauty in my life which unfold and balm in fullness.

 

[Ronin]

1. Already excited about other wave of violence at people for 'looking terrorist' (read: of color)
2. Baby steps.
3. Baby steps, with that other thing too.
4. Wonders of informal therapy.
5. I had no idea I remember that. <facepalm>

 

[Anrish]

1. Glad for a good friend who told me she's pregnant.
2. Glad for her trust because only her husband and mother know besides me.
3. Let Cleo sleep or wake her up?
4. What to write for postcrossing this time?
5. What a nasty weather outside....

 

[Nikie]

1. Wonder how I could help @Cashew with his baby steps with the the other thing ?
2. So nice to see the sun shine again ( in my heart) Fear it would get so far again?
3. Thinking of @jaccat and her loss making me sad thinking of my daughter and the loss of her dog when a pofadder bit it..
4. Thinking about @ladee and her new job(((hugs)))
5. Wonder if I could ever make my mother proud of me.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Sorry for @jaccat , for your loss of your dear fur-companion. :(
2. Like I'm finished.
3. That my prayers for others, even, are useless. Told a lady at church today I have been praying for her needs for a year+. Doesn't look like it's helping. :(
4. Feel like a freak there, everyone is so- confident? Welcome? Idk the word. Whatever it is, not me.
5. Been told all my life by others I'm 'different'. Not in a necessarily bad way. But I don't 'fit'.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. I was wrong to try to 'fit'.
2. I was wrong to open my mouth.
3. I probably have to scrap celebrating all holidays, it's all triggers. Another part of me to amputate.
4. Dr-Assisted death has to be an individual choice, both because no one knows what another person lives with, & the onus can only be ascribed to the person themself.
5. I haven't been to a dentist in 31 years, rarely to a Dr, the breaks set themselves & the scars instead of stitches. And it shouldn't take getting sedated to get my hair cut, but haven't done that, & so it is. It's hard to feel ok on 3 or so hours of sleep/ night, that's decades. Nightmares hurt, & I'm tired of washing my sheets because of night sweats. But today I have to again, as per-often. More energy to nothing.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. That's true but whiny. I abhor whiny . I think that's why SI is a better alternative to me, than whining. "Shut the f&@! up" is what I heard in my life, & frankly at this point for myself I agree.
2. I don't self-harm any more, but I guess suicide is an extreme form of it. Or, is it a rational choice, considering day to day?
3. Poor @Cj77 , blabbing on. Thanks for the 'ok' about it.. :hug:
4. I hate lying, myself included, & I hate lies, & BS. Creepy.
5. Unrelated, chose to show a woman 5-foot long wet spot on the sidewalks, shaped just like a perfect bunny. She said fantastic, couldn't believe it. The things one can notice of no import. Happy Easter or Passover (I think?, for the Jewish people) for anyone who celebrates. Happy week end to those who don't. Much love for all of your help, kindness, laughs xoxox. :hug: :hug:

 

[Anrish]

1. I worked well on my keyboard.
2. I still have lots of practise to do.
3. My biggest problem is my patience - not existent.
4. I wanna hug @Junebug and tell her I'm listening! :hug:
5. I go and write some more postcards.