5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[trying2movefwd]

Im kind of afraid to see my psychiatrist tomorrow. What if she really doesn't want to "deal" with me any more since the Borderline Personality disorder diagnosis? She waited an entire month to see me after getting out of inpatient hospitalization? Why? Am I one of "those" can't handle "her"(meaning me) types now? Should I even go?

On the other hand I have a fantastic counselor who really seems to care about me.

I dread meeting with the social security attorney on Friday

I wish I could just go into hibernation.

I want a best friend, but when I get one they get scared away when the real me starts to emerge.

I wish I had someone to hold me.

I need a tissue

This is more than five.

 

[trying2movefwd]

My cat gets special privileges as she is an ESA, she would be allowed in "no pet" properties but I would probably try to avoid those for the uproar alone.@Recovery4Me

 

[Recovery4Me]

@trying2movefwd (((hugs))) Yes, I know. :tup: Glad you have an companion.

I could have that too but it is too hard to find shelter in this city with an animal.

BTW ...there are T's that specialize in Borderline. Have you done DBT yet?
There are a few of us here that work in that modality in therapy. It is used for PTSD too but was originally designed for Borderline. There are freebies on the internet.:hug:

 

[sedna]

1). I need to accept that you dont just suddenly develop PMS in your 40's. My last eggs are leaving and they are angry.

2). To them I say " good haha, glad you werent fertilized."

3) Im going to call my doctor tomorrow

4) low cal jalepeno cheese popcorn is not a good night time chocolate replacement with an iphone because the touchpad doesnt work and it looks like toddlers manhandled it. Every reply has taken 10 minutes and now I feel crazy for putting the time in.

5) Im going to look for a different way to manage stress soon. Very soon.

 

[Ronin]

1. Similar tangent. Botching the doc. Can't afford the travel for an useless advice that would likely come. Or worse, for cluelessness covered abuse, however well intentioned.
2. At least friends I am thinking of are stable or healing.
3. Looking at the bright sides: nobody beat me in a week. :rolleyes:
4. Ok what the f*ck weather where did you go this used to be easier.
5. Self, berating yourself over the speed of a study will not make you study better.

 

[sedna]

I have a huge HUGE legal issue I have to deal with.

I really feel like Id ratjer just ear candy and watch the Bravo cjannel

I also know that I see that I just typed that, and I miss when I was more interesting.

Im going to have to spend what looks like a year in a war for the greater good of nice kids , money, proving something and whatever.

The best time to fight, is always when the enemy turns down every negotiation

You have no reason to hold back from the kill and its clean.

 

[corvidae]

1: @coco9 support. also i think there ought to be an "angry eggs" app parallel to "angry birds"...with satisfying squelching sounds.
2: the cats are staging training exercises that involve leaping from the top of the fridge to the table to the counter to on top of each other.
3: coffee does not equal complete meal...
4: ...nor does a cup of tea.
5: i so wish they did.

 

[sedna]

I have a huge HUGE legal issue I have to deal with.

I really feel like Id ratjer just ear candy and watc...

Thats actually pretty funny to me today.

At my most serious and reflective moment last night, when I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and couldnt even be sarcastic

Cheese popcorn stuck to my fingers and made me misspell

' Bravo channel and eat candy'

Tragically, the tears in my eyes kept me from seeing it in time to edit.

Thats what I get for taking myself seriously :rolleyes:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Still sick after eating some solid food before my body was ready:(
Managed to move my ass to get a new tire on my car and that is was cheaper than I thought it would be.:cool:
Got all of my errands done in record time:p
Feeling relief that I can now relax:D

 

[trying2movefwd]

So the doctor? Totally finding a new one!
Another thought is TMI to share, but makes me very emotional
It's strange when you can notice your dissociative
My thumb is sore! Hahaha no it really is. I was scrubbing My oven clean and hurt it somehow
I just want SLEEP. :sleep:

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm just too tired to get paperwork done that is necessary. :( Thank God it's due early friday a.m.

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel like I've donated blood. Twice. :dead:
Not sure what my thoughts are. At opposite ends of the poles, so will let them all sit.
Hugs to all. :hug: