5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Tinyflame]

Oops, I did not know that @Rain , me too. :(

1. Horribly triggered by a thread on weight- can't carry weight and run, but still couldn't outrun- remembered being chased. But mostly too felt the fear of what if there's still a repercussion in the future, still? :( I realize that means fear of the future, more than the past. So I came here to try to feel less in the grips of worry and put it in context, challenge my thoughts.
2. Most of the time I do what I must, no option. I wish there were alternatives, but there aren't, those alternatives require $$$.
3. Decisions of $ over life shouldn't have to exist, but one without the other is not possible.
4. Tried to wrap my mind around, I think S. Id'tn has a lot to do with being too tired to do the things that decrease it. But, I don't want to be selfish, or self-absorbed. I want to be able to genuinely smile and laugh again, not the mask.
5. I think denial plays some part. And wanting instant change/ recovery.
6. I think I should re-read the book I started with.

 

[Crow]

1. I chose to eat an avocado over ice cream. yay me.
2. mold inspection guy comes tomorrow. I don't like people in my space.
3. should I turn off the dehumidifier to be sure the mold count is high? I'm thinking yes. I'll give the trio allergy meds.
4. therapy sucked today. seems if I can't go more frequently then there's no point.
5. T offered service and I pay later. that feels like charity. and I feel shame even contemplating accepting.

 

[Deleted member 43031]

1.I am scared of finding out my QEEG results tomorrow
2. This neuropsychologist scares me
3. I don't know enough about neurofeedback to feel safe,
4. I can say no to this guy and find someone I feel safe with if I decide to try it
5. I want a female T

 

[Deleted member 42957]

1, calm down, stop shaking before kids get up.
2, must really get a walk in before work
3, does chicken nuggets and chips qualify as a good family meal for tonight if I add peas as I can't be bothered.
4, must go to bed early tonight to catch up on 2 missed nights
5, why is my partner being suspiciously nice to me?

 

[Deleted member 29920]

1. I've come a long way these past 2 years
2. Apartment is a mess again, don't even know how
3. Tired, sooooo tired
4. Shadow people? :eek:
5. How did my phone change its own alarm ringtone?! :cautious:

 

[Ronin]

1. Back on here to at least track missing time.
2. Most people terrify me.
3. Back to finding which pieces of images fit with what place.
4. Bridge: Protection. Other bridges: f*ck that already.
5. 'Listen, just because that uniform lost purpose doesn't mean you have.'
6. ... I can't believe gnatsies made me happy for that reason, because that works for Enemy Enough, let's stay, there's fight needed.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Dealing with the aftermath of a ongoing crises is hard work and I am mentally drained and exhausted.:(
Going to try to start pacing myself again and use post its to write down in case I do forget.:eek:
Going to do some things about getting started on fulfilling dreams again, once I get back in therapy.:)
PTSD flare ups once again, I really do not like feeling like I am back to the beginning once again.:O_o:
Very embarrassed about my PTSD symptoms coming back.:tup::confused::mad::x3::shy::shy:

 

[expectingbetter]

1. I really think I am going to start wishing sincerely something good for myself despite my biggest issue is I never think I deserve it
2. This what keeps happening to me is really hard to endure anymore
3. I really need something good to make a balance
4. One think which is that did indeed happen to me lately and I am grateful, my present of the membership
5. I am incredibly sad because of my skin

 

[Let It Be]

It's okay...
You don't have to be where you think you have to be.
Give yourself some more time, everything will work out.
It will happen when it is supposed to happen and just give yourself a break.
You have been through so much and look where you are at today,
I think you're going to be a-okay!

 

[Teasel]

1 ~ Realise I've been avoiding this thread since my bad patch. Isolating even from this thread is quite a lot of isolating.
2 ~ but I feel better just now
3 ~ makes me so happy when I can get things done
4 ~ it's a sunny evening here, blue skies, light breeze, s'lovely
5 ~ I'd like a day out soon

 

[Anrish]

1. Hugs @C j , @Rain, @Bearlinda , @expectingbetter, @Let It Be and everyone who needs one. :hug::hug::hug:
2. Reading Karin Slaughter again - the name says it all.
3. Light sunburn...but great tour.
4. My head works too complicated...:banghead:
5. Vanilla joghurt with Suisse chocolate...:happy::hungry:

 

[Deleted member 42957]

1. Going to be a long hard day
2. Need a slap
3. Not eating today
4. Must think of something nice to do with kids on my day off
5. Legs..... please will you move