5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Ronin]

1. @Chiqui, I know right? Last week was mostly summer, and now it's so fall-winter-ish colder.
2. Doing something for people on the streets doesn't cut through as 'purpose' anymore.
3. So back to: Where/how do we vanish.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

7. Been winter here for 4 weeks now, want to kick that evil queen from Narnia's butt :mad:

 

[Muttly]

1) Having an "I can't" day but don't have that option
2) Need to get romaine at the store for madam bunny
3) trying to find a positive attitude
4) ok, time to get moving
5) wow, today is really rough. oh well, hopefully it will change as it goes

 

[Anrish]

1. Flirting...me?
2. Blushing all the time.
3. People hugged me?! :wideeyed:
4. I feel at ease.
5. ...subway tomorrow. :ninja:

 

[Ronin]

Aww, congratulations on that progress, @Anrish. :)

Hope things go smoothly and you continue to have fun. So glad to hear, too.

 

[Anrish]

@Ronin : Thank you. I still can't believe that progress - and it looks like he's ...also interested in me. :rolleyes:

 

[user44376]

That I’m considering suicide more and more and the fear of it is becoming less and less of a deterrence.

I don’t even know why I’m alive.

I’ve been rediagnosed with CTPSD recently and the one symptom I cannot shake is my lust for revenge on my old boss who destroyed me in so many ways.

That I want to weep because I’ve become addicted to buying books on Amazon simply so I can receive mail almost daily and feel like someone cares. This is so sad and pathetic I can only admit it anonymously.

I’m tired of having nothing good to say.

 

[jaccat]

It's beautiful walking weather, but my hip really doesn't do cold.
I hope I haven't damaged it again.
I didn't realise today was Friday, nor that it's now December!
I need to find my motivation again. This mood is too close to anhedonia for comfort.
I'm worried I'm losing control over my sleep pattern again, but I don't know why.

 

[The Albatross]

@AddHomnym - (That I’m considering suicide more and more and the fear of it is becoming less and less of a deterrence.
I don’t even know why I’m alive.
I’ve been rediagnosed with CTPSD recently and the one symptom I cannot shake is my lust for revenge on my old boss who destroyed me in so many ways.) The first item is not the only solution for the third item. So far as the second statement, I would suggest a new purpose. Also "loneliness" is an adversive cue for socialization but of course until the ideation and depression are arrested, addressing that aspect is not likely to present itself because you might not recognize opportunities. Use your safety plan.

I'm thinking of the "perception of lonely" and am starting to do a self study about it. ( Two vids to crack the ice: Why Being Lonely Is Crucial For Survival and How To Deal With Loneliness - Especially While Self-Actualizing )

I'm in a lot of pain every day but no pain, no gain. (Scorpions song lyric - Scorpions- No Pain, No Gain )

I am embracing the idea of peace, calm and valuing it over "lonely".

I am doing more than my prognosis and physical limitations (and doctors) think I can.

I am getting better at choosing more generally beneficial perceptions, consistently and that is a stabilizing and more favorable difference.

 

[BM2A]

@The Albatross, you are super inspiring! That was a good post.

@AddHomnym , I dont think your sad or pathetic. And i dont believe anyone else here would either. Keep going, keep posting. You can share, thats the beauty of this site :hug:

 

[Muttly]

1) I got so much more done than I expected today. Plenty of wood in for the stove, laundry in the works, generally tidying. Woo hoo
2) I need to cut my hair and shave
3) I managed my first good nature walk since I hurt my knee... well... that's not true. I guess I've gotten in two others. But this was the longest and the most naturey (heh). My dog loved it and it was great for my head.
4) My boyfriend sent me a message asking what I want for christmas/chanukkah and I felt like crying. It's too bad my family turned gift giving into such a...what...?? I am not sure how to describe it. There was just so much tangled strings/expectations/judgement involved.
5) Calling him my boyfriend doesn't feel completely right. I suppose it will do. I guess... he's my boyfriend in a distant and limited sort of way. And I guess I am going to let that be for now. <shrug>

 

[trying2movefwd]

I am too tired to think
My sons party is in 9 days
Christmas is in 24 days
I am too tired to think
I dislike heartburn