5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[RVA21]

1. A better day :)
2. Watching birds
3. Black Sabbath t shirt :D
4. I would welcome a storm, honestly
5. My mouth feels kind of odd

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh yes @Ronin , any and all favorites! And all needs are ok, being they are needed because of the past or not. I think picnics should always be safe zones. :happy::hug: I also make an excellent milkshake... ;) But I can do smoothies.

Glad pup is weight bearing a bit- carried her down , and she promptly came back up on her own. :):inlove: She's not big but about 75 pounds. :laugh:

Pup looked worried til I picked her up and put her on couch, and she was like, "Ok- great! Pblm solved/ no pblms/ not worried now/ happy". :inlove:

I am trying to tame my mind; emotions; thoughts; heart-pains. Will be really glad when I get out of work.

I think I am fearful and avoidant to avoid pain.

I realize I avoided a nice person, and openly engaged with someone who doesn't have my best interests at heart. :confused::(

 

[Ronin]

1) Weather reports
2) Messaging
3) Time & Windows
4) Food & Stuff
5) Gear

6) What's so difficult, that cf of a long trigger is broken to parts needing current ups the same. &
7) Stuckness on life rafts is not on.

 

[RVA21]

1. Not everything sucks
2. Changing radio stations ?
3. Universe listening ?
4. Generous humans ?
5. Love ?

 

[NatBird]

wow I made it to the workshop and it was exactly what I needed

the universe is a joker

I don't need to know the answers, I just need to put one foot in front of the other and lace the stride with prayer

I don't know how I am going to do this, if I can do this

you don't have to

 

[NatBird]

1. I don't know how this is going to work
2. I am grateful to be starting again
3. Be careful what you call in, you will get it!
4. about the 'closing' of big chapters
5. will it really be ok?

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Little baby would be my 3rd cousin. She is very tiny with big eyes. That would be my input for an ancestry tree decades from now. :)
2. Instead of SI I am sitting still.
3. Should I still enter contest?
4. Work is very stressful.
5. Stuff on here is triggering I just read, because I can somewhat relate. And it is so shameful, sordid, etc, (for myself- not reflecting on others), and is really triggering, 11 on a scale of 10. Well, 10. Am choosing to recall, what is past is forgiven and over. And therefore gone. :notworthy:

 

[Muttly]

1) getting tired of being this shutdown?
2) sun is shining but there's still a dusting of snow. nice
3) my fingers are doing it again
4) I need to get dates in my calendar
5) time to get moving

 

[RVA21]

1. Slow down mind!
2. Freud etc
3. Madonna etc
4. Books
5. Cocoa

 

[Rani G2]

No you are not alone dude, you do pick in your nose
People Do strange things..
Bought weird sh*** because you never know, you will want it
I ran in the Mall and my Lime/papaya smoothie fell
A kid cryin next to me- I‘m in my usual zombie attitude

 

[Rani G2]

No work, Rain and gloomy, So what is ME doin?
If it’s „Bobby Bland = Aint nothing you can Do“... the song of the Day, May it Be
Break selfcompassion/Hope/Duty/Responsibility/Selfcare... all Big lovely bubbles.. break them into the touchable meanings, Gloryfing and the failure that some Do ain’t workin for me,
If it’s a good sandwich, I mean ya know‘ a really good one, a one that you won’t share, may it be.
If it’s the treadmill in the Gym and me listening to soul music with chewing gum, may it Be, please leave me out of the romantic world lady K!

 

[NatBird]

It seems I'm not meant to know what I need (people with health issues aren't meant to) and so I should be greatful for what I get, even when it is inadequate and not what is needed

I don't know if I am projecting my own feeling of not being good enough. Or am I finally seeing what people have been giving me is not good enough, in fact it is piss take and insulting

The above is a new thought. The easy thing to do is blame me. It was new that this voice came and said, -- actually it wasn't good enough

I just want to crawl under a rock and and die

It feels like this grief is destroying me. Yes it's destroying the old me. In the process I feel like I am being gnawed to death. I can't seem to find a way to be with it, to be still, which only catches me deeper in the teeth

Those are long thoughts