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I have been chastised by the courts, once again, for having PTSD. Not directly, but it's clear enough. To me, anyhow.
I think I complained here on myptsd about the multitude of trespasses in my home, and the cops did nothing;
About when I was sexually assaulted, it was on audio and video, and the cops did nothing;
About when, years before, how I almost went to prison for defending myself inside my home from a man that forced his way in and threatened my life;
And now, I had to take a plea offer. The State of Utah wanted to put me away for 1-15 years because I was angry that the cops do not one f'king thing...only to find they are willing to go after me, a cripple, because I am easy game.
My hatred for cops is earned.
If they spent 1/4 the effort and time they spent on trying to put me in prison, on the crimes I reported, they would actually catch someone.
If someone want to beat me and rape me again, I can do nothing about it. If I do something to defend myself, I stand a good chance of going to prison. If I merely report it, the cops don't care. All I can do is...nothing. Doing anything else and I am punished.
I think I complained here on myptsd about the multitude of trespasses in my home, and the cops did nothing;
About when I was sexually assaulted, it was on audio and video, and the cops did nothing;
About when, years before, how I almost went to prison for defending myself inside my home from a man that forced his way in and threatened my life;
And now, I had to take a plea offer. The State of Utah wanted to put me away for 1-15 years because I was angry that the cops do not one f'king thing...only to find they are willing to go after me, a cripple, because I am easy game.
My hatred for cops is earned.
If they spent 1/4 the effort and time they spent on trying to put me in prison, on the crimes I reported, they would actually catch someone.
If someone want to beat me and rape me again, I can do nothing about it. If I do something to defend myself, I stand a good chance of going to prison. If I merely report it, the cops don't care. All I can do is...nothing. Doing anything else and I am punished.
