A Form Of An Anxiety Attack?

[bentleylove_03]

I was raped at the age of 15 by my former best friends older brother. Several years into my adult life, I've recognized more and more that I suffer from PTSD that affects various aspects of my life. During intercourse I experience what I've always described as a panic attack, but after reading more into it, I don't experience the usual symptoms of a panic attack. I do experience an extreme sudden feeling of doom, as if something terrible is happening or going to happen, but above all else I just have a feeling a disgust. It can happen randomly at any point during sex, where I suddenly get a wave of the most disgusted, violated, shameful feeling, where I just need to stop. Does any one experience this form of an anxiety attack? Or is this even considered an anxiety attack, or maybe called something else?

 

[TLight]

I'd call it suppressed feelings trying to come to the surface. A panic attack you'll definately know....like you're going to die.
Anxiety, yes definately. Try to allow your feelings to be and to be accepted I guess.

But panic attack is definately a 'known' when you have one.
No worries. You've been assaulted and shut down. Of course that's going to bring up distressing emotions.

 

[Abstract]

I am sorry you feel this way. I hope you get help if you have not already. I don't think this sounds like a panic attack from what you describe. Panic attacks are sudden and feel like you cant breathe and are going to die and your heart races etc.

It sounds like it might be intrusive feelings that are linked to how you felt in the past. Speak to your T about this as you deserve help.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

After being assaulted like that what you describe sounds normal to me from what you have been through. I know healing is possible. I cannot say what you are experiencing for sure. I think this is something to take up with a qualified therapist.

I am sad about what happened to you. It happened to me too and I have never been the same since. I was so innocent and pure before that. After my assault I felt ruined. It was devastating. I can still remember looking at my face in the bathroom mirror, after I got home after the assault. I was fourteen. I so empathize with you. I can do sex but it is not what it would have been if I had never been assaulted. I hope this helps. I wish you well.