Very early, this morning, after being awakened, after two and half hours of sleep, by Star (one of my three cats) who wanted me, to play with her, I realized something very important, had happened, concerning my past and my earliest flashback trigger. For it will be thirty-nine years, this November that I suffered, a severe electrical burn, to both sides of my mouth. The doctors, who treated me, told my parents, I was very lucky, to survive this. Over the years, I have four reconstructive operations, performed. The last one happened, in 1977. And yes, the scar is still there, on my right side of my face, no matter, what other people tell me. For I see it daily, whenever I look into a mirror.
Only now, do I feel comfortable talking about it, with anyone. For years, I would run away or try to, whenever I saw an open flame, near me. Not realizing, the flame was an emotional trigger, from my electrical burn, as a four year old. I think, my years of exposure, has lessen the impact, which this trigger has upon me. My first real victory, over a PTSD flashback, and I never knew it, until now.
Only now, do I feel comfortable talking about it, with anyone. For years, I would run away or try to, whenever I saw an open flame, near me. Not realizing, the flame was an emotional trigger, from my electrical burn, as a four year old. I think, my years of exposure, has lessen the impact, which this trigger has upon me. My first real victory, over a PTSD flashback, and I never knew it, until now.
