SeanCharles
Diamond Member
Going into work, I never really know what I am walking into when I arrive an hour before I clock in. This is not a comfortable position I've liked since I had to deal with a negative situation in the past and I may write about that situation soon.
I find out that my boss was doing the opening cooking since one of our cooks were suspended. In small ways I had expected that the chairs in my lobby would be down, nope! they were not. So I immediately pulled all the chairs down and did a few other tasks that needed doing before I went down to the deli kitchen service area to do what I do there.
At one point I was paged to the Grocery receiving area and needed to grab a pallet of chickens, which I have not done for a while. The pallet turned out to be the wrong ones but I put those in the Deli first then went to the receiving area again and the pallet I needed was on a truck. While I was struggling with a manual pallet jack, the assistant food manager said I should use the power jack! For sometime, since the seizure I had had at work I had avoided using this piece of equipment for safety reasons. So, today I fought any fears and with some necessary feedback from a co-worker (who is also a PIC) was telling me what I might find while using it, I very carefully got this from where it was parked at the other end of the stock room over to the receiving door which had my pallet and like I've used this with experience, I pulled the pallet off the truck and set that back then parked the jack back where I got it from, actually another co-worker parked it since I was struggling a little since I was a little uncomfortable.
While my Anxiety was present, I was also present the whole time I was at work, I had no dissociation at all today.
I noticed today also, that while I was experiencing anxiety I was having zero intrusive thoughts!
All in all, I had not had a day like today out of the 8 years I've been employed at the company!
In part, I suspect that knowing that I am building a Disability case may have contributed in one way or another.
I find out that my boss was doing the opening cooking since one of our cooks were suspended. In small ways I had expected that the chairs in my lobby would be down, nope! they were not. So I immediately pulled all the chairs down and did a few other tasks that needed doing before I went down to the deli kitchen service area to do what I do there.
At one point I was paged to the Grocery receiving area and needed to grab a pallet of chickens, which I have not done for a while. The pallet turned out to be the wrong ones but I put those in the Deli first then went to the receiving area again and the pallet I needed was on a truck. While I was struggling with a manual pallet jack, the assistant food manager said I should use the power jack! For sometime, since the seizure I had had at work I had avoided using this piece of equipment for safety reasons. So, today I fought any fears and with some necessary feedback from a co-worker (who is also a PIC) was telling me what I might find while using it, I very carefully got this from where it was parked at the other end of the stock room over to the receiving door which had my pallet and like I've used this with experience, I pulled the pallet off the truck and set that back then parked the jack back where I got it from, actually another co-worker parked it since I was struggling a little since I was a little uncomfortable.
While my Anxiety was present, I was also present the whole time I was at work, I had no dissociation at all today.
I noticed today also, that while I was experiencing anxiety I was having zero intrusive thoughts!
All in all, I had not had a day like today out of the 8 years I've been employed at the company!
In part, I suspect that knowing that I am building a Disability case may have contributed in one way or another.
