A thought on anxiety panic and hypervigilance

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Being in a personal time of processing, reflection, therapy and treatment I'm starting to feel that most of my anxiety is derived from a lack of self trust/self doubt unsure to trust my intuition, which oddly I relied on heavily to survive and was pretty spot on, being a lifelong sufferer of trauma resulting in reoccuring bouts of homelessness and addiction, I've always been quite hypervigilant due to living in unsafe conditions but never really suffered from the anxiety and panic until being exposed to intense psycological abuse, which destroyed my sense of intuition, constantly second guessing myself, that turns into panic because i never felt safe so was constantly in a state of undue hypervigilance, in almost any situation, with my system being constantly saturated with cortizol. I'm in a good treatment program now and am gradually starting to come around a bit, but as things shift gears now i find myself constantly exausted, sad, un motivated, disconected and suicidal, as bad as that sounds it's actually an improvement and is getting lesser as I'm becoming more aware of my triggers and learning to avoid them, just sayin

 

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I suppose what
I'm trying to say here is what i've personally found is we have to start trusting ourselves agian foremost in our recovery from trauma to be able to move forward, even if it's just a little bit. It has made a huge difference I've found

I think this applies hugely to this topic as self confidenc I believe, aka self trust is core to lessening anxiety and panic, hypervigilance is another story altogether, just because you're hypervigilance just means you're educated and aware, just a thought