A Trigger That Might Get In The Way Of My Career.

[SimplyComplex]

I think if you don't put your welfare first, you might get removed from school. Have you heard of the term "put your own oxygen mask on first"?

 

[BrazenBull]

Lol
We don't use that term in the magical land of Asia, we use "Slave yourself getting good grades, work hard, and maybe you can afford to feed your family, if your successful enough to find a spouse" or something along those lines xD

But I guess I should start trying to take it easy :(
After all I guess I'm only human too, although for most my life I wasn't treated as such.

 

[Vee Lagrome]

Well, you are still very young, so a lot of your habits can be changed relatively easily. I used to hate talking to people, especially public speaking. When I first started college at around your age, I was pretty crappy when it came to you know, being nice to people, talking about anything and not sounding like a babbling moron, and basically anything that required social skills.
I would just say, start out slow. You need to get that practice, it is absolutely essential. It is very difficult and I won't pretend that it isn't, especially since we tend to have the wonderful baggage of PTSD. I wouldn't go to a crowded area at first, maybe like, find a friend (or someone approachable) from your class and ask him/her if she wants to get lunch, a snack, or coffee and just try to do a little small talk. Look for opportunities to ask the person questions and make a game of getting to know them better. You don't have to keep hanging out with this person or even become best buddies with them, but doing an outing every once in a while, going to a small study group when you have the chance, etc will really prove to be great learning lessons. If you do start to have a panic attack, just tell them you have a heart condition or something along those lines. They will understand that your reaction is out of your control and you don't have to reveal to the world that you have PTSD.

Much luck to you :)

 

[Booknerd]

I don't want to discourage you but nursing ruined me. I already had anxiety and ptsd undiagnosed since I was a child. After almost 20 yrs as a nurse, I have seen too much, felt too much, and have a hundred more triggers than I used to have. Therapy and meds are helping me, but I can't even go into a hospital now without having a panic attack. Be smart about this because in healthcare you experience a person's worst nightmare everyday, every hour for every shift you work. Make sure that a strangers nightmare does not become yours too.

 

[BrazenBull]

Yeah I'll try socializing with classmates a little, that would help. Unfortunately, some of them know I have PTSD ._. but I don't think they mind all that much. I do talk to them, like asking questions and stuff, but thats about it. One of them told me a while ago that I seemed to be talking more then usual, and that it made her kind of happy to see me opening up a little. Maybe it would make them happy if I talked to some of them more ._. or at least tried to.

This last week I have been kinda .... really rough on me and I have been extra jumpy, and ... well you know. I actually apologized to one of my classmates yesterday night about the way I have been acting, and she apologized too and said she might have done something to made me nervous. :X I didn't know what to say lol.

And I also have some bad memories in the hospital, last time I was in intensive care I had Dengue Fever and I waas in so much pain and the nurse told me I had a 50% chance to live especially since I didn't eat for about a week,, and this nursing student tried to get my blood and he put the needle in wrong and it took him like 4 mins to draw blood. I was like "FFFFUUUUUUUU" D:, ans there were those surjuries, broken arms, snapped tendons and nerves,
but I'm actually ok with hospitals, Im going to one in 2 days I think.

BTW I got higher then most of my scholar classmates on that test ;D (being in a scholar class has been putting alot of stress on me too I think ._. , I'm not a scholar and people ask me why I'm in there sometimes lawl). I feel like..... i just got a huge load off my chest. x_x