Accountability Friends! :)

[Definitely..maybe]

Found the perfect little proud face!!

:smug:

I think, lol.

 

[littlelostchild]

Definitely - that is not silly at all, actually it is inspiring for me right now. I need to take the risk to engage in pleasurable touch with my husband and I am terrified. We understand where the fear comes from and I trust my husband, but the fear is currently holding me in place.

I really want to try. I am thinking about the quote, "There is nothing to fear but fear itself". Definitely - you have really got me thinking more bravely! Thanks

 

[Definitely..maybe]

@littlelostchild you got this!!!:tup:

And if you need more time- that's totally okay too!!:happy:

 

[ms spock]

I went to Sydney, went to therapy and then went out with a friend.

 

[Leah123]

Today I'm going out for a long walk with someone I met on Craigslist to help me socialize more. Having someone to talk to about life and just have fun with, must be good for dealing with stress. :)

We didn't quite get to DBT yesterday, not directly, but it was a good therapy session, very good, and I'm gonna commit to DBT on Thursday.

 

[ms spock]

Walked an hour, did some meditation, went to a lunch with friends, rang for support.

 

[Leah123]

Gosh, I had not thought of anything to help with the PTSD today, yet I'm feeling really stressed and exhausted from recent events, so I need something.

I think I will take an hour off work today (I work from home) for a nap in my office. Getting some rest is probably really important, have had a lot of trouble sleeping well until about two nights ago, and am always short on sleep anyway.

 

[littlelostchild]

I am taking a little more time with the touch homework. We will talk about it today in therapy.

 

[littlelostchild]

We talked about the touch homework yesterday, as I had not done it. :yuck: We broke it down into more manageable chunks and actually tried my husband and I doing a standing hug with him rubbing my back for I bet it was less than 30 seconds. It was difficult and triggering, but I got grounded and we did it one more time with him verbally reassuring me that I am safe and that helped the second time.

After we left the office, I was upset and it took about an hour to figure it out that I was angry and sad. This is going to be tough, but important work.

 

[Leah123]

Today I launched into the DBT workbook with my therapist. I'd started on my own, but really wanted her to partner with me, so I'm very pleased with myself for working hard to get to this point.

 

[Leah123]

Friday I got a massage and reached out to my therapist. Helped some. Saturday I tried to embrace radical acceptance, to see myself as observing life and not reacting, to trust I was okay, and set some goals around that to keep working on in the new year: balance, perspective, observation instead of reaction. Today, I will simply try to give myself some time with a good book: it is a family day, and with the stress I've been feeling, it will probably be a victory to just carve out some quiet me time.

 

[ms spock]

I did some meditation which is good. I have a lot to get done today.