Accountability Friends! :)

[Leah123]

Today I had a really relieving therapy session, talking about a major trigger. I'm gonna pat myself on the back for that one. :) Also, I'm feeling very stressed now, but instead of sinking down further, I'm going to try reading a book I like for a pleasant diversion. :)

Hope you all are doing well.

 

[littlelostchild]

I got out of the house today and ran errands. I could have avoided it with the terrible weather that we have had, but I forced myself to do some shoveling, defrost my car and muscle it out of the driveway (thank goodness for 4WD). We now have groceries again, I have my meds for over the holidays and the kitten has purple claw covers. I actually felt better when I got home than I had before I left.

 

[Leah123]

Today I gave myself time to read a book and do a bit of gardening, i.e. some calming activities despite the busy season. It's real improvement, for me, this past year, to work on making time for myself.

 

[ms spock]

Managed severe and major panic attacks?

 

[ms spock]

Being present in the now.

 

[Leah123]

Yesterday I took a hot bath and read a book. Got triggered in the bath and screamed at the family though, sigh. At least now they know not to barge in there and start fighting! Today, therapy.

 

[Leah123]

Today I reached out to my therapist and assertively (not aggressively or indirectly) asked for what I wanted, and got it. I also listened to some comforting songs, put on a soft pashmina I got for Christmas, and made myself some tea, all to calm me down as I dealt with being triggered about unwanted touch when I was younger. I think I'm doing well, I hope so. Am going to work on the deep stuff in my Monday session, I hope.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

I've been going for a 20-30 minute walk every day, and it's actually helping- yay!

Also, I'm excited for january! I'm going to get back into school (after taking a semester off), start a weight loss program (too much comfort chocolate:x3:) and hopefully move.

All things working towards a healthier, happier me:smug:

 

[Definitely..maybe]

@Leah123 that's so great that you could be so direct with your therapist, I know how hard that can be!
And what a great way to comfort yourself whilst being triggered!

 

[Leah123]

Thanks so much. Today, I'm going to do the same things again- it's going to be a hard day I think, had a serious talk w/my husband this morning. So.... I'm going to make some good tea, wrap up in a sweater, listen to some comforting music...

Not sure what else to do, am freaking out about this rupture w/hubby, sigh, what I *want* is to be alone and sleep, but that doesn't always work well in a family.

Anyhow.... the PTSD symptom getting me most now is probably fear, the fear response, am feeling frozen, so... best cure for that is to make myself feel safe, I guess I'll do that by just reminding myself I am. I'm a grown woman, powerful and reasonable, and I feel scared about this tension in my marriage, but I'll be ok. Better than ok, probably.

 

[Leah123]

Today, therapy and soup-making.

 

[Leah123]

Today, reading my DBT workbook and another. Maybe a visualization MP3 if I can get some privacy.