Almost Called 911 on Myself Today

[chrissym]

This is one of the worst days I have had in a long time. I went completely crazy an hour or so ago, and i thought my head was going to explode from anger. because of my addictions I can't take any drugs that really help so I smoke pot, but today for the first time in forever I am out of that along with my zoloft...NOT A GOOD DAY. I won't be able to be on the internet after today so this is my last chance to get all of this off my chest so, bear with me please if I ramble. My mind is going a mile a minute. Chrissy:mad:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Chris,

First of all TRY and calm down. The more upset you become the more out of control you are. Breath deep and focus on your breathing. Go take a warm bath, put on some soothing music, and do whatever you usually do to calm down. Self talk yourself to calm down. Go for a walk, do whatever just try not to let this mushroom.....

Don't let this get more out of control than it already is. YOU are in control and CAN control yourself. I know it feels like you can't right now, but you can. You are still here and didn't call 911 so you have some control left, lets see if you can get some more by calming down a little.

 

[chrissym]

thank you She Cat, I am doing alittle better right now, but I feel like a ticking time bomb waiting to go off. And I thought I was doing so much better, I feel like I am in the middle of a life game of shoots and ladders. I start climbing up the hill but damn if those slides don,t keep popping up and right back down I go back to the bottom. All I can do though is keep climbing back up. Thanks again/Chrissy

 

[sunnydaze]

Chrissym,
I too ride that same rollercoaster. Maybe, we should wait for those good days and really appreciate them doing something for ourselves even if it requires pushing ourselves out the door, visiting a friend or elderly person, going to the movies ect. I know easier said than done. I might try my own advise this time just to see if it works. Our off days can be used for writing, relaxation, playing music ect. I'm just rambling on but at the moment it sounds good and helpful. I hope you can find comfort and joy in your life as I wish for all of us. I'm going to try and set my mind on getting spring cleaning done so when this winter weather breaks, I can work in the yard ect. Working in the yard in the past has always helped my mind and mood as you feel like your in a park free from all worries. It's just pushing myself to do it.
sunnydaze