Am i doing ok?

[Miwogaf]

Whoever posted post number 2.... that's way unnecessary and pretty f'ed up.

Ah, the irony is so strong.

 

[Afur]

You may very well be doing just fine. And that's okay. Really. Life threatening trauma happens to most people at so e point in their lives and only roughly 20% go on to develop PTSD. It's not so simple as experience trauma and get PTSD. That said, there are a number of things that can be done to increase the chances of your staying fine.
Traumatic Resilience: Avoiding Ptsd & Emotional Resilience

That said, both with trauma in general, & killing people in specific? It very rarely feels like what people imagine it feels like. Personally, I don't take very much issue with killing. That's not what f*cks me up all these years later. It's not the things people think f*ck me up, that do. It not like in the movies.