Thanks so much everyone. I have to admit I do love keeping busy a bit. It is a new pace during the crash months. For the last few years it is brace for the storm and weather it out in bed sick as a dog with panic attacks, xanax, no sleep, and flashbacks. If I am just ancy with an attack here or there not cycling for hours and days and needing to keep busy it just shows how awesome I must be doing as it is major improvement. I will keep the work in check but it just feels good to want and need to do again instead of hide.
I am even driving around Kansas now! I was given a GPS to give me confidence and it does wonders!! I even went to a department store I drove to all alone and went in and shopped all alone. Tell me that is not WOW LMAO!
I may be MIA but my work has not slowed a bit. 4th round coming and I think I am going to give it a run for the money this time. All the advice I have received in the past from all of you has been incorporated so thank you.