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Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

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My ptsd feels like an alien, some days I know it others its like a stranger.

Today its a stranger......
 
Like... Loneliness, in my head all the time, everyone else is on the outside and not to be trusted.
Like...You're going to get beat up if you arrive late.
Like...I am hated and everyone wants to mess with me on purpose.
Like...My mind is working on overdrive and my heart needs a tune up.
Like...Hate, fear, rage, anger, sadness, and sorrow.
 
Like a hole in my soul. Like a stranger in a strange land. Fire in stomach, fire in my head. That I must hold myself in such total control. Completely ruled by stress for nearly 50years. Feels like why do I bother.
 
Like I have died and been reincarnated into another life full of problems and hardships that I have to struggle with but I am, at the same time, haunted by my previous lives that keep visiting me with horrible memories over and over and nightmares and triggers that change and influence my behaviour in my new life and stop me from living it to its full potential.
 
I recently had a chemically induced heart stress test and it was exactly like being triggered by PTSD. I felt sick. My heart was pounding. I couldn't breathe and felt panic. That's exactly like waking up from a PTSD nightmare in the middle of the night. Now I wake up from the nightmares, I get a flashback of laying in the hospital bed gasping for air.
 
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