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Thank you for your kind words, @gizmo.
As a matter of fact, I really think there are some great people on this forum, I feel really understood and even appreciated by people who I don't know or see in my daily life. It feels good to get that kind of appreciation, to be accepted and to be understood. Music is great therapy, yes, but unfortunately the music business is tough as hell. Every musician is so used to just push through everything that they can't imagine having a disorder because of 'things I went through'. Those people (in their words) 'suck it up', but I understand why: there is so much competition, everything you say could be used against you. As a musician you want to come across as reliable, resilient, trustworthy, hard worker, etc. There is no place for mental disorders, simply because for most of those people they don't exist, as they just keep on going so that they come across as those strong kind of people - this is a must for people in the music business in my country. So as I tried to keep my head down a little, and only talked about PTSD to the people there who are close to me and understanding, I found this incredible forum with people so nice, I have never felt so understood and encouraged before on a larger scale. YOU GUYS ARE GREAT. Thanks. All my love to you. @Snowwhite @gizmo @SheilaKathy @WillyKat @The Albatross @Meteorology12
@WillyKat I have tried the breathing exercise today at the train, it's going to take time to train this a little. The first thing I had trouble with was relaxing my muscles :) and by the time I arrived at my city I was still busy trying to relax. But I had my first Seroquel yesterday, so maybe by the time it worked out all the anxiety that was pushed out for a few hours had to come back even stronger. I went to my psychiatrist and she prescribed Lexapro and Seroquel for me. I kind of have set my hopes on the medication to help out a little :)
As a matter of fact, I really think there are some great people on this forum, I feel really understood and even appreciated by people who I don't know or see in my daily life. It feels good to get that kind of appreciation, to be accepted and to be understood. Music is great therapy, yes, but unfortunately the music business is tough as hell. Every musician is so used to just push through everything that they can't imagine having a disorder because of 'things I went through'. Those people (in their words) 'suck it up', but I understand why: there is so much competition, everything you say could be used against you. As a musician you want to come across as reliable, resilient, trustworthy, hard worker, etc. There is no place for mental disorders, simply because for most of those people they don't exist, as they just keep on going so that they come across as those strong kind of people - this is a must for people in the music business in my country. So as I tried to keep my head down a little, and only talked about PTSD to the people there who are close to me and understanding, I found this incredible forum with people so nice, I have never felt so understood and encouraged before on a larger scale. YOU GUYS ARE GREAT. Thanks. All my love to you. @Snowwhite @gizmo @SheilaKathy @WillyKat @The Albatross @Meteorology12
@WillyKat I have tried the breathing exercise today at the train, it's going to take time to train this a little. The first thing I had trouble with was relaxing my muscles :) and by the time I arrived at my city I was still busy trying to relax. But I had my first Seroquel yesterday, so maybe by the time it worked out all the anxiety that was pushed out for a few hours had to come back even stronger. I went to my psychiatrist and she prescribed Lexapro and Seroquel for me. I kind of have set my hopes on the medication to help out a little :)
