Chris I think of my PTSD just like I think about my shrapnel wound. Both of them give me problems from time to time.:thumbs-up I fear that we will never be our same old selfs however right now I'm just trying to be better that I am at this moment. I will not beat myself up for something that I did not cause. As you can see I have always tried to justify my actions. I have been called passive aggressive just because I use to plan my attacks more than I do now. This the main reason I'm seeking treatment now. The fact that I act more impulsively now. If I'm thinking I'm controlling. If I just act then I'm losing control. I do not drink because I'm scare to lose control. Yes, I'm power happy too.:think: Peace for now.:hello: