Another New One... Should I Restart Therapy?

[AmazonBelle]

I would be lost without therapy. It also eases the strain on my husband, who gets a break from hearing it when I share things with my therapist

 

[salome05]

@amazonbelle

hello,

hm... i had a time, too, when therapy was necessary to disburden my husband... but there was the point, when i felt that i spoke about ALL my problems with my therapist only - i kind of excluded my husband from my life, even from things with no direct connection to my trauma. this was one of the points to take a break from therapy... i wanted to share my life with my husband... i did not want uns to drift apart... it is quite difficult to find the "golden way" between overstraining the partner and excluding him...

i don't know... we have our date in about a week - then we will know how to go on... :-)

happy new year!!!
s.

 

[salome05]

the new therapist is still ill and cancelled our date again. so i have no more energy to wait. we will care about a new therapy later in my life.

i started my first job since my diagnosis. the first job for about 3 years... i like it. i have a nice boss. :-)

 

[mightsurvive]

Hi Salome
Nice to meet you. I just thought i would let you know that i really identified with this post and wanted to offer a friendly hand of support to you. I also died during my trauma and somehow made it back. If you ever want to talk about it then u know where to find me. Thinking of you.

 

[salome05]

@mightsurvive

Hi,

thank you for your reply. :-) Whenever I think of that (my almost-dying experience) i immediately wish to die. :-( I do not know why I feel like this - my life is really good, I live in a more than good partnership, I have a cute daughter, I started to work again... I feel happy for most of the time - and then I think of this almost-die-moment and I could start crying: "Why wouldn't they let me die..."
Why???

Regards,
S.

 

[mightsurvive]

hiya salome
Thats how i feel too. Just wish i had gone and not come back. I wont post about this again though because u dont deserve to feel like this. But when you're feeling so badly about it please do contact me and i will be there to support you. @}--'--,----

I am a teacher of Languages by the way - German and Spanish mainly. Your english is outstanding. Must have taken a lot of hard work. :-)

 

[salome05]

Hello again,

thank you very much for telling me that you feel the same. i cannot explain why, but it really helps me to accept my "illogical" feelings whenever i get to know that i am not the only one in the world...

> But when you're feeling so badly about it please do contact me and i will be there to support you. @}--'--,----

:) thank you...

>I am a teacher of Languages by the way - German and Spanish mainly. Your english is outstanding. Must have taken a lot of hard work. :-)

*schäm* Me estas tomando el pelo? *lach* Sería más fácil escribir en espanol para mi... Cuando leo aquí veo que mi inglés ha empeorado mucho ya que no lo ha usado desde hace anos... No entiendo muchos expresiones norteamericanos... Auf jeden Fall fällt's leichter, in einer Fremdsprache zu schreiben als in der eigenen... me da más distancia a mis problemas...

un abrazo,
s.

 

[mightsurvive]

jejeje - no estoy bromeando, para mi tambien es mejor escribir en espanol or aleman. Hablo aleman mucho mejor que espanol porque lo aprendo hace casi veinte anos. Aprendi el espanol en espana y por eso no entiendo algunas palabras de america del sur. Manchmal finde ich, dass es einfach nicht das Selbe ist, Fremdsprachen zu benutzen - einfacher zu sagen was ich sagen mochte. Komish oder? Wenn ich Deutsch spreche finde ich, dass die Gefuhle einfacher sind. Gar keine Ahnung warum.

Bis bald
MfG